Hey,
I am stressed. I've been feeling down. I do not know why. I'm moodless, emotional, down and just could not be bothered with things. I wonder why.
I'm searching for an answer to this whole revelation. What could it possibly be? I'm despising school right now. With me being in this form, school is a drag. Everyday I go to school with this constant complacency. I could feel the vibe. Especially when I'm near or around or with a certain human beings.
I never thought I'd say this, but school is eating me up. What with its timing, the load of work, assignments, tests, all kind of shit. It really is eating me up.
How does one reacts when one found out or realizes a person's true self? What does one do or suppose to do when one found out that a person is on to something? What does one do when a person has been badmouthing one behind most peoples' back? What does one do when one knows a certain people is or are constantly having a problem with one?
You don't give me a reason to not hate you. I blame you completely for all that you've done, doing and going to do. The best part is, you're still a kid. Let me repeat that: A KID! A kid who has too much, way too much of sinful acids both metaphorically and literally. You have too many obvious flaws and you're not doing anything about it.
I've something that I wish to convey to you: I've my own form of temper. You do not want that side of me to surface. I know I don't. Please variate while I'm still tolerating.
I spent the whole of today doing e-quizzes. What a goner.
I don't know what its like with you. One moment you're hot and then you're cold. Why are you doing this? I can't help but to think its my fault. Did I do something? Did I say something that made you turn your back against me? I feel guilty every time I think about it. What went down between us. Here I'm thinking maybe we can pick things up where we left them. I am, however getting a feeling that I'm clapping on my own this time round. Its really saddening. Such a waste. We both share the same birthday, birthyear and birthdate. I know its petty but up to a certain extent. And yes, up to a certain extent. There is a connection. I can tell. When I hear your voice over the phone the other time, I cannot tell you how much I've missed that voice. How much I missed talking to you over the phone. How many sleepless nights we spent being with each other. Alas its too late now isn't it? You've clearly moved on. Effort gone to waste.
Hear these words, hear my cry,
YOU who have clearly drifted-by.
Let the object of objections return,
So its existence may be reaffirmed.
YOU who have clearly drifted-by.
Let the object of objections return,
So its existence may be reaffirmed.
I've gained weight! What a horror! I shall spend the whole of tomorrow mugging. I've test here and there and every now and then. What could be worst? Like its peak period now huh.
Alvida!
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