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Saturday, May 30, 2009
Hot!
Hey,
Went to downtown east today on behalf of my uncle and aunty. There's the may day, family day thingy. So total there were 6 of us. It was fun, tiring, laughed alot and basically it was so much fun. My cousins are super entertainers! Himbos!
We ate at Fish & Co. Express. Its nice.
I saw someone I didn't expect to see but know very well that there's the absolute place where the person will be.
Mother nature's a bitch! The weather is extreme these days. Extremely hot and I can't stand it. I bath in cold water and that too at around 5am and I don't feel cold at all.
Ranbir Rano is ending! This coming week will be the last week and this coming thursday is the last episode. This is sad. Ek aur pyaar kahani khatam ho gayi. Ok overall the soap is really fantastic. I like. Did I mention, Naaginn ended as well. All my favourite soaps are either ending or ended. This is just great. Now I'm left with only Chotti Bahu to watch. Please don't tell me Chotti Bahu is ending soon.
You're the epitome of pathetic. I'm disgusted by every inch of you. From the way you talk to the way you smile to the way you laugh and whatever that comes out of your mouth. Plain annoying.
I'm starting to love school. I like coming to school. The people at school makes me smile one way or another. I especially love thursdays. :)
Alvida!Labels: Falling in maybe
SLurBp @ 10:24 pm
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Substance of confusion
Hey,
The thought of blogging is welcoming and me being an active blogger and an unapologetic believer will always succumb to what I think and feel is close to me - and that is, my blog.
I never realize the power of command. I've always been told about it and especially almost everyone around me keep telling: practice makes perfect, and now I see it for myself! Of-course it has strings attached. For instance, constant improvisation such as commonly simple terms and doings is required. It all make sense! I see myself now on different heights with clearer visions.
I think you are super annoying. Just too bad I've to face you every now and then. Its not my fault I chose to be where I wanna be. Its just my luck and I take it as a retribution for all I've done and said (with matters related of-course) in the past. Lesson learnt and noted. I will try my very best to prevent myself and by doing so, I won't be the same as you.
Reluctantly resisting but as the heart grows fonder, almost every routinely steps is a hoping excitement only to find disappointment and self-conscious.
I am random.
I am feeling tired and confused right now.
Tum chupa na sakogi main voh raaz hoon. Tum bhoola na sakogi voh andaaz hoon. Goonjta hoon jo dil mein toh hairaan ho kyun. Main tumhaare hi dil ki toh hawaaz hoon. Sun sako, toh suno, dhadkano ki zabaan.
Main hi main ab tumhaare khayaalon mein hoon. Main jawaabon mein hoon, main sawaalon mein hoon. Main tumhaare har ek khwaab mein hoon basa. Main tumhaari nazar ke ujaalon mein hoon. Dekhti, ho mujhe, dekhti ho jahaan.
The miles to go in a quest to impress others is never ending, and it will never end. So why bother? Especially when suffocation starts to settle in and its usually the case of a common man who happens to be the opponent. Ignorance and denial with dignity is the best medicine to this kind of habitual problems.
I'm sleepy and tired. I need the bed with extremely long hours of sleep.
ALVIDA!!!Labels: patience is definitely a requirement
SLurBp @ 10:48 pm
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Common Lamentations
Hey,
In school right now. I overslept (again) and woke up at 10.35am. School starts at 8am. Fantastic right! Since I'm already late, I come to school alot later! I leave house at around 12pm, board the bus at around 12.15pm, reached the busstop outside school at around 12.55pm, walked to school and arrived at tutorial room at 1.05pm - just on time for the lesson.
Today end at 6pm. Yeah long day. I've to do a presentation in a while. An Individual Presentation. Nervous and afraid that I did junk for my work. Urgh! I hate presentations.
Surprisingly having so much to say and I find myself in a situation where words alone is incapable of doing justice and definitely would not be in my favour thinking of its aftermath and the impact of the aftermath, just unbearable.
I need money and am excited about the coming break. I need to study. Having an airport pass is a blessing in disguise. Eating chocolate excessively is sinful but I don't give a damn. People are forever envious and that goes without saying.
ALVIDA!Labels: The depth of randomness
SLurBp @ 4:35 pm
Friday, May 22, 2009
I Am Surprised As It Is
Hey,
I found something belonging to a person I once know and how I wish I had not known the person and the rest of the people from where I get to know the person and the rest.
As expected there were what I thought it would be, only worst. Did not know you would have so much hatred in you.
Months it has been and clearly we've moved on. The fact can be worrying and trembling for the victim. But deep down we all know NO one would give a damn over a matter as petty as this, or something related.
No one in their right mind would ever sacrifice themselves over another especially not when its a new 'hangout click' and for instant gratitude.
I admit I agree to most of your points. But you are as rigid as it is.
Think over it now with a calm mind and the purest of heart you've claimed to possess.
If your ego still subsides then I'll have nothing else to say but to admit defeat. Not defeat for the whole 'battle for security' but defeat for what a waste to a person I thought to be intellectual.
I'm surprised by how positive some can be. That is maturity. Sadly for some, who apparently seems oblivious, do not know what is maturity despite their age. And that is no exception for you.
Everything happened for a reason and there's always a blessing in disguise. For me, I've seen and know the blessing and thank-god I am aware and realize myself despite the abrupt end.
Now every time I were to think of something positive or the goodness of things, I would be instantly reminded of the things you've said and also what some other people have said.
People's mouth I can't shut and people I can't and shouldn't and don't have to impress. If you think I'm a bad apple then so be it. I've no means of amending the situation. Nor would I ever say or do things in return. I'm not playing angel here but just tired and couldn't be bothered. People like you and the rest are just a waste of time and especially do not deserve my time.
When you think of it, that's about what your life has to offer and what you can probably get. I feel sad for you. And damn right never do I wanna see your face or anyone from that place's faces again. Never!
I hope our paths don't ever cross. As I've said, it has been months.
I am happy now. With what my life has to offer and look forward to the future, my future. It is definitely bright as it is now without people like you and the rest, let alone the future. I can see my future being as bright as the sun on its happy days.
What is life without hassle, problems, obstacles and much more? This is life. Life is a bitch but you just have to rely on yourself and be the bitch who wins at the end of the day.
I throw whats left, over and done away. I treasure what I have now and hope for the best in the future. As what you seem to be, I'm a very much happy and fun-filled person and I don't give a damn to what people think.
With that I believe you have no point to prove or even label me with words such as sadistic, pathetic or whatever that comes to your mind. Because clearly, deep down, we both know neither of us are any of those things.
I wish you and the rest all the best for your endeavors. Because some of you are wonderful people who has good intentions in life and deserves success.
I am grateful to god for whatever I'm given and have right now.
I will always pray to god for blessing and care.
People change themselves along the way as they want to be a better person at the end. And only people with brain will see the change and accept people for who they are and for those who've changed for the better. There's no harm in giving people chances. You are no god to be punishing people.
The exact reason why I've mellowed down and forgive all those who has constantly hurt me or those who deliberately hurt me. Part of it I just could not be bothered and part of it is I realize myself for who I am and Its not in my hand to decide someone's fate or to punish the person.
Stare blankly into the mirror. Think of all the things you've done.
ALVIDA!Labels: parts of parts from parts off parts
SLurBp @ 10:46 pm
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Monotonous Rant
Hey,
I'm in school now having another one of those long day. In the e-learning plaza right now. A place where I thought and believe to be pointless.
I sense some reluctance and dislike. Is it what is known to be one of those drawbacks or pulling away? I hope not. It is premature indeed.
I'm having migrane now. Just what I need.
I need to organise my things and sort out my stuffs.
Alvida.Labels: not much
SLurBp @ 10:26 am
Monday, May 11, 2009
I'm Still Hungry
Hey,
Overslept today and arrived school 1 hour later. When I entered the class, to my horror, everyone was already there and I'm the last one. So I slowly crept in and find a seat hoping no one would see my entrance but! The lecturer saw me! And he was like:
Lecturer: Wah! Late?!
Me: *stoned*
Lecturer: Whats your reason or excuse or whatever?
Me: (I would say I'm fashionably late.. but heh! Wasn't even close!) I overslept.. heheh
Lecturer: That's not a reason. That's just an excuse for your reason. (membebeling while at the same time taking attendance.)
Lecturer: Go and do practical, lab 4. Still got time. Use common sense to do practical. That one no need to teach. How to teach common sense? Tell me? - He's forever favourite line! And his students love him for that; and his other crappy lines as well as pronunciation error. Haha.
Me: okay.
School ended at 1pm today. Izzat, Wawa and Fie stayed in school to study while Sharf and me left. We took 72 and head home. Sharf allighted at Hougang and me all the way back to Tampines.
Reached home, EAT and EAT and EAT and EAT. Suddenly there's just too many food in my house to gobble.
I managed to clear some of my pending homeworks and assignments. Now I'm blogging and its already time for me to sleep. Tomorrow is a long day!!! URGH! 8am - 6pm! Giler!
Damn! My brother is not working tonight. So no free pizza tonight.
I should go to sleep. I should go to sleep. I should go to sleep. I should go to sleep.
ALvida.Labels: plainly typical
SLurBp @ 9:12 pm
Thursday, May 07, 2009
Bavare Naina
Bavare naina bharein raahe raat bhar
Bavare naina bharein raahe raat bhar
Sowe jaage jaage sowe
Jaane kis baat par
Mann khush bhi hai bechain bhi
Uljhaan kaisi dil ryain ki
Ab tu hi aake bol Kanha
Gaanthe saari khol
Tu jo keh de chal jaaoon is aag par
Chal jaaoon is aag par
Mann chaahe pankh laga kar
Sari khushiya yeh paa kar
Kahi uudh jaaoon
In muskano pe mera
Azhikar kya hai ye sochoon
Main darr jaaoon
Haste kathmose jo badh jaaoon
Kahi raahon mein na kho jaaoon
Ab tu hi aake bol Kanha
Gaanthe sari khol
Tu jo keh de chal jaaoon is aag par
Chal jaaoon is aag par
Ka aghaaz ke nikle saare
Pal chaahat ke
Ka aghaaz ke nilke saare
Ud gaye sab jaane kahan re
Pal chaahat ke
Aise badla yeh manzar
Kuch toot gaya mere andar
Bin aahat ke
Eehaas jagaye tu ne jis dil mein
Phir toda vahi dil kaise tu ne
Ab tu hi aake bol Kanha
Gaanthe saari khol
Tu jo keh de chal jaaon is aag par
Chal jaaoon is aag par.
Jo tut gaye hai sapne
Jaane kyun ban kar apne laut atte hai
Nahin manzil jin raston par
Kyun unpe kadam ruk ruk kar badh jaate hai
Voh tera nahin sun mann pangle
Kyun maane na tu kyun na sambhale
Ab tu hi aake bol Kanha
Gaanthe sari khol
Tu jo keh de chal jaaon is aag par
Is aag par.
Bavare naina bhare rahe raat bhar
Bavare naina bhare rahe raat bhar
Sowe jaage jaage sowe
Jaane kis baat par
Mann khush bhi hai bechain bhi
Uljhaan kaisi dil ryain ki
Ab tu hi aake bol Kanha
Gaanthe sari khol
Tu jo keh de chal jaaoon is aag par
Chal jaaoon is aag par Labels: Chotti Bahu
SLurBp @ 10:29 pm
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
I Will Always Remember
Hey,
Today was supposed to be spent doing pending homeworks, assignments and studying but all I ended up doing was laze around, watch TV, ate like a hungry pig and talk crap with my cousin.
School was suppose to end at 11am today but since we were gd!.. we were released at 10am! But thanks to the instructor and his grandfather stories, we were released at 10.30am.. Quite ok lah actually half-an-hour delay. Now when I think of it I just don't know why the hell was I rushing to get back home a.s.a.p. Maybe the thought of being at home is just comforting.
AND if I spent more time outside then my money will be spent too. And that is a big No No! Trying hard to save up here. Gosh! I need money!
Went to the bank just now with my cousin, deposited some cash. After that we went to the bubble tea shop. We both had Chocolate Orea each. I love it! Its damn nice. Usually I will have Milo Oreo But since they were out of milo, I go for chocolate. Then we walk back. I accompanied my cousin to the bus stop while waiting for the bus. While we were walking, I can't believe what I saw! And its actually somewhere VERY near my block. Uh! *Melting Moment*!
The bus came and I walked back home.
Thank god I went out with my cousin to the shop just now.
I was watching TV just now when I saw this ad on Sunway Lagoon. It reminded me of the last time I went there and that was in Dec 2006. I had a good time at Sunway Lagoon! And Ooo.. I was In Love at Sunway Lagoon! Yes now I remember..
I wanna go India! I wanna see the magnificent Taj Mahal in Delhi and go to Mumbai!!! Kya pata, Hum actor bangaaya!! Haha. Keep on dreaming lurh you self-absorbed bitch.
Never thought I would see you. Though everytime I am hoping to catch a glimpse of you. Its funny how I never wanted you to see me and I get all shy up whenever we were near each other. But deep down I wanna see you and just look at your desiringly gorgeous face and just stare into it for hours!
And this is with regards to my previous posts; I especially LOVE that dear cousin of mine who was with me that night, consoled me and cheered me up. I'm so moved by your sincerity and generosity. I LOVE YOU BIG TIME!! Say Cheese Cake! Ahahahahahahaah!
Alvida!!!Labels: When I was alone and when it was safe
SLurBp @ 10:23 pm
Monday, May 04, 2009
Give Me Money
Hey,
I feel sick right now. Maybe I'm just sleepy. The screening has started again! There's temperature taking at school everyday effective from today. IS a hassle.
I need money! Is it possible for someone to wrongly deposit money and the money was deposited into my account by accident and there's absolutely NO way the money can be taken out unless of-course carefully and happily enjoyed by me.. That will be AAAAHHHH!!!!! If possible let the figure be.... Hhmm.. say $100 000 000.00 ok maybe that is too much. I would do with $12 091 989.00. That would be just fine.
I really need a break now. Alot to catch-up on and definitely alot to think of.
I'm in school now having a break. Out of pure boredom I decided to blog. I have a long day today and I end at 6pm! Like WTH?! And and to think that I start school at 8am tomorrow! Thank-god tomorrow is just a 3-hour class so tomorrow I end at 11am! I can go home and sort my forever-in-a-mess - self and stuffs.
I bought Bvlgari BLV! Next is Gucci by Gucci Pour Home. Uh! I'm such a perfume freak!
I have not been watching TV! I wanna watch Chotti Bahu and Ranbeer Rano. I've missed my Radhika and Rano alot! Sad that Naaginn has finished. Its a really good show.
I think maybe its best that I don't know anything and will never know. I am aware that you are pulling yourself away.
I wanna eat at Fish & Co. and maybe try out Fish. And I have got to eat cheesecake! So its either Secret Recipe or Saycheesecake.
I love my cousin and whatever my cousin posted on my cousin's blog.
ALVIDA!!!Labels: Focus if you are smart
SLurBp @ 9:27 pm
Saturday, May 02, 2009
As Expected
Hey,
I just reached home like half-an-hour ago. Just came back from my cousin's engagement. When I left that place, it was in the state of cleaning up and all but because of some reasons I had to leave.
I should have listened to my instincts. After I ate, I should have just left. It would be so SO much better! At least I'll be at home. I wouldn't receive all sorts of nasty or whatever remarks.
Was humiliated in front of others by some worthless people. Never knew it would be this hurtful. Moments after the humiliation in which the victim was, sadly, me, I could see those satisfaction grin and that one-of-a-kind smile by some people and I'm sure in the back of their mind they'll be shouting: AAHH! Strike One! Jackpot! In ur Face! Take that you pathetic loser! What more after that I have the guts to ask some people about certain people in which I was questioned by a question which has a thousand indirect meaning and shoots.
I feel so sad right now. I am however trying my very best to forget about the whole incident. But it takes time. Hopefully I can manage to forget about this whole humiliation very fast.
I've drawn a line many years ago.
I kept asking and telling myself, maybe some day I can perhaps erase the line.
But No! The line remains.
It stays right where it is.
Now the line is even fatter and bolder than ever.
Urgh! I'm having flu right now. Just what I need after a bloody long day. And I really mean its a bloody long day.
My cousin is now doing her internship at the Airport. That means she can enter the transit area. AHH! That is so much fun! The transit area is Heaven! At least for me. I'm sure she's goinna enjoy herself in there. Well she deserves it. After all those hardwork.. And especially chocolates! She can go nuts.. Dear cousin, get me some please! Its duty free! Hehehe..
I wanna watch hindi movies. I need my dose of hindustan. Something that can totally soothe my feelings and emotions anytime. Something which is comforting and hits the spot.
Till here..
ALVIDA!!!Labels: Im just not goinna bother
SLurBp @ 11:24 pm
Friday, May 01, 2009
Strange Altogether
Hey,
Its a holiday today but as I've said, this weekend is a busy weekend for me. Mainly because my cousin is getting engaged. I'm tired now. Have to wake up early tomorrow morning. Urgh! Can I please sleep in? I'm looking forward for the food though! There's goinna be awesome food! Tomorrow shall be my carb day.
I found out today that a distant, very distant cousin or should I say, my cousin's cousin is in RP! I'm like OMG! Shouldn't that person be in some JC or something and should I get my facts right, the person IS in Uni now?!.................... Dunnoe urh.. Or or it can possibly be that the informer's facts wasn't trustable.
I'm missing my Airport Guide friends already; which is strange cause I've just met up with them like a week ago. We had an outing last Saturday. It was so much fun! They are the best. I was entertained the entire time. I really enjoy their company.. Can't wait to meet up with again. So looking forward for the next outing.
Strangely finding myself tyring to find ways and means of not being presence. Is it because of the human-beings that is goinna be around? Or the ever-irritatingly-somehow-or-rather-difficult tasks that will be thrown at me by some idiotic people? Or is it all put together? I really don't know. I'm in a state of confusion right now.
I so need a break right now. It would be much appreciate by me if I could travel to another country, Switzerland or Korea perhaps. Flying with SIA. I would have lots of money. I wouldn't have to worry about excess baggage or anything for that matter. Kaash..
I've expected this knowing silence of yours. That's typical you. I don't blame you. Maybe all of my lies have finally surfaced or it could just be you being selfish and I'm just punishing myself thinking that this is my retribution. I do hope that you don't do this to others. Its not good.
I brought back my friend's book yesterday by accident. I wonder how we managed to swapped our books right under our noses and eventually not realising it.
Somebody told me I've to improve my english. My commond of the language is horrifying and just unspeakable! Somehow or rather I think its true. I do agree that I've to improve my english and my english now is poor. I'm not being sarcastic however.
Till here.. Wanna watch Chotti Bahu.
ALVIDA!Labels: not that clever after all huh
SLurBp @ 11:21 pm
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Inner-Self - Absorbed
Char Dino Ka Pyar O Rabba
Kitne Zamane Ki Lambi Judai
Maine Nazron Se Tujhe Choo Liya
Sajde Sar Jhukta Hai Asmaan Se
Bin Maange Yeh Jahan Pa Liya
Tujh Mein Rab Dikhta Hai Zara sa
The Heir
Fhariz Khan
a Virgo
am 19
Forever Undecisive
By His Side
His Family
Chocolates
Bvlgari
Naaginn
Harry Potter
Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna
Books
Music/M.O.S + Movies
Food!
Please Rot
Himselve
The "NONEs"
Trend Followers
Dogs and Bitches
Pathetic Losers
Worthless Cowards
Self-Absorbed Assholes
Irritating Specimens
Desires
$$$ - Loads of it!
Licence to Fly
Multi-Lingualable
Louis Vuitton Damier Geant Canvas
Gucci by Gucci Pour Homme EDT
Transformable
Bvlgari Parfums and Accessoires
Ben & Jerry's Forever
A Few Words
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