Hey,
Long time eh. Well without computer at home, life is NOT bright at all. I'm at my cousin's place now. I feel so 'malu' using their computer. Obviously there's no privacy at all lah... Whenever I am using their computer, they will sort off hang around behind me doing this lah that lah, sort of checking on whatever i am doing. And that makes it hard for me to blog. When no one is in the room then I'll have to type and type. When someone comes in I have to switch tab. URH!!!
I think 'some' of my cousins are constantly having problems with me. I really don't know why. One of them is a cousin whom I am very close with. That one I admit I said something which pissed her off. Another few, mmm, I think they sorta have problem because something is fishy whenever its with them. Its those when i turn my back there'll be those 'signal-smiling' and stuffs. And i caught them Texting each other and (OK I admit that I am NO gd human-being at all) I go and read their SMSes... ahaha And its all about me.
It hurts at times knowing what people are actually talking about y0u and stuff and especially what they feel towards you and above all the way they approach you. It makes it 10 times awkward when you actually know whats really going on and how they tend to be nice to you and talking in usual form like nothing actually happen where they have know idea at all that you actually know the truth. So hypocritical right.
Now I tell myself: Don't Bother! I don't have time to actually be sad and disappointed and reflect on what had happened and how to make things right. And I especially DO NOT have the time to go and pacify them. Pi Setan Ah! I'm not the old me. I may seem or sound heartless but that's just the way it is. If you think that I am some kind of a person where you can fool around and make a joker out of me; then you thought wrong. I hate it knowing that I'm being used and the feeling of being used just sucks!
I need money. I need money so that i can learn driving (which costs), I need money so that I can buy myself a laptop, And I need money to buy a brand new desktop for my home (preferably IMAC! ahaha). I don't wanna ask my parents to buy the desktop PC cause they bought the previous one and it costs! And further more they've got a lot to pay (bills, utilities, fees etc.) so i thought of lessing their burden, know what I mean.
I just hope and pray that I get ALL of my money back. I really really really need them.
I went to downtown east yesterday to accompany my cousin. We went to New Urban Male shop. She wanted to buy birthday presents for her fwens and, well, lucky me! I've got an advance birthday present for this year! The first (and probably the only) one for this year. Its a pair of Havanas slippers! AWW!!! Its bloody nice! I love it. Then after that we went to my cousin's fwen's wedding. Its a Sikh wedding. It was totally awesome! The music, the food, the dance, the atmosphere and everything. I really love it!
I need to lose weight. I'm getting fatter by the minute! URH!!! But I love to eat and I hate gaining weight. So how?
Till next time...
ALVIDA!!!