Hey,
It has been crazy for me these past few days. More like few weeks. I have no idea why. There has been a lot of ups and downs for me. More like major drastic ups and suddenly the next moment a drastic down.
Its Wednesday today and that too is coming to an end in about 1/2 hours time. Its only three days into this week and I've completed reading 5 story books! With the current book I'm reading which is on its last few chapters, it shall be the sixth book. That is? I mean yes its good that I've been reading lots of books but it is also not good as I should be reading or revising or actually start studying my school stuff. The education things. The much more important part seeing that exams are in a month's time! Crazy!
I'm really feeling emotional right now. God knows why. Even I don't. I have this sudden feeling of not wanting to go to school and wanting to go out to work. I can't wait to start having a career. When I think of career, I think of Degree. What about degree? Well I would certainly love to get myself a degree, as in move on to Uni.
The grand plan was that once I'm done with Poly, I shall move right on to Uni. I think I shall do that. Pursue my degree programme then I shall start working or should I say career. Maybe then I shall let my 'education-conquest-spirit' rest a while and eventually 'learn' more about the real world out there - working world.
By this time in April, which is in about 3 months time, I'll be in year 2 already. I suddenly have this terrifying more like scared feeling at the pit of my stomach. I've been worrying a lot lately and it is all about school. Well most of it is about school. Some is just about a certain particular friend an individual who is a complete stranger, complete outsider, a personal friend of mine. It has been stressful.
I have an 8am lecture tomorrow followed by tutorials at 10am. At the sound of that I can feel my energy draining out of my system. School really is a pain right now.
For the record I did not want to blog at all today but right now I'm surprised to see the number of paragraphs I've managed all at one go. :)
I don't have much appetite to eat lately. I'm just eating to survive. I use to be passionate about food. At one stage I used to indulge and salvage every single bit of scrumptious food that enters my alimentary canal - from my mouth of-course. That's how digestion works in all. Now, I'm eating whatever that is there so long as I eat and drink just enough to go on with the day. This is insane right?
I would love to go swimming some day. Maybe soon. Maybe this coming holidays which is right after the exams. Speaking of which I've just reminded myself of the fuckload of studying that needs to be done! :(.. Urgh!
I'm sleepy now.
Alvida.
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