Hey,
As odd as it sounds: I am Heartbroken.
I'd never thought I'd say this but I am. As of today it makes it all clear. That there was never us. Not even a single ray of hope. Not even with the 'help' and 'signals' from our dear friends. As mundane as it seems; I am clapping on my own again. Just as I thought there might be a chance. What we had, was it pretentious? Was it selfishness? Was it making-use of? Was it all a one big lie? You tell me. Seeing your significant other at a place where I'm obligated to really makes my heart boil. What he has that I don't?
I'd never thought that you would inflict this much pain upon me. The person I care for, bails on each and every time and above all adore with absolute intended biasness. Was there a point you would like to prove?
I'd never thought it would hurt this bad. Every single time even the littlest things are awefully painful. Is this retribution? If it is then what is the reason? Being stupid enough to fall for you? Even if it is, I would like to say that loving you is a pleasant feeling. I find comfort in you.
I'd never thought of such things being super major. I thought maybe because we go way back and there might just be some 'things'. Then again its not even close to a spark let alone flame.
Lambi Judai. Pehli Nazar Mein.
I wish you all the best in your love life. I hope he can fill you with the ever happiness and lots of love. You are a great person. You deserve to be loved. And as for him, he's lucky to have you. May you find all that you want and need in each other.
That was the best that could possibly get and went.
Alvida.
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