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Sunday, June 29, 2008
Major and Minor Current-Problems
Hey,
Long time eh. Well without computer at home, life is NOT bright at all. I'm at my cousin's place now. I feel so 'malu' using their computer. Obviously there's no privacy at all lah... Whenever I am using their computer, they will sort off hang around behind me doing this lah that lah, sort of checking on whatever i am doing. And that makes it hard for me to blog. When no one is in the room then I'll have to type and type. When someone comes in I have to switch tab. URH!!!
I think 'some' of my cousins are constantly having problems with me. I really don't know why. One of them is a cousin whom I am very close with. That one I admit I said something which pissed her off. Another few, mmm, I think they sorta have problem because something is fishy whenever its with them. Its those when i turn my back there'll be those 'signal-smiling' and stuffs. And i caught them Texting each other and (OK I admit that I am NO gd human-being at all) I go and read their SMSes... ahaha And its all about me.
It hurts at times knowing what people are actually talking about y0u and stuff and especially what they feel towards you and above all the way they approach you. It makes it 10 times awkward when you actually know whats really going on and how they tend to be nice to you and talking in usual form like nothing actually happen where they have know idea at all that you actually know the truth. So hypocritical right.
Now I tell myself: Don't Bother! I don't have time to actually be sad and disappointed and reflect on what had happened and how to make things right. And I especially DO NOT have the time to go and pacify them. Pi Setan Ah! I'm not the old me. I may seem or sound heartless but that's just the way it is. If you think that I am some kind of a person where you can fool around and make a joker out of me; then you thought wrong. I hate it knowing that I'm being used and the feeling of being used just sucks!
I need money. I need money so that i can learn driving (which costs), I need money so that I can buy myself a laptop, And I need money to buy a brand new desktop for my home (preferably IMAC! ahaha). I don't wanna ask my parents to buy the desktop PC cause they bought the previous one and it costs! And further more they've got a lot to pay (bills, utilities, fees etc.) so i thought of lessing their burden, know what I mean.
I just hope and pray that I get ALL of my money back. I really really really need them.
I went to downtown east yesterday to accompany my cousin. We went to New Urban Male shop. She wanted to buy birthday presents for her fwens and, well, lucky me! I've got an advance birthday present for this year! The first (and probably the only) one for this year. Its a pair of Havanas slippers! AWW!!! Its bloody nice! I love it. Then after that we went to my cousin's fwen's wedding. Its a Sikh wedding. It was totally awesome! The music, the food, the dance, the atmosphere and everything. I really love it!
I need to lose weight. I'm getting fatter by the minute! URH!!! But I love to eat and I hate gaining weight. So how?
Till next time...
ALVIDA!!!Labels: I will not bother so do not worry
SLurBp @ 9:16 pm
Saturday, June 21, 2008
I Am So Tired
Hey,
Time for another update. I am so sick of some people. Its actually a bunch of idiots which i have to endure being together with at a place. A place which i am at most of the time for a few months to come. I just hate them. Irritating bunch of sick, wild losers! Damn those people.
I want to learn driving. I want to be able to drive. That is like WHOAH! I so can't wait to get behind the wheels. The only problem is $$$. Its all about the Benjamins bebeh! ahaha. I really need money. Suddenly there are loads of things that i wanna do and it involves lots of money. For example, driving license, repair my computer or sadly buy a new one, blah blah blah.
I don't wanna ask my parents to repair the computer. They have got loads to pay. Bills, fees, daily and monthly expenditure, household need and many more.
I can't wait for this June break to be over. Than my brothers would go to school and eventually there'll be peace.
I feel like eating cookie dough. Homemade cookie dough. But if I can have Ben & Jerry's Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough it'll be better of coz! I miss those carb days where i'll eat and eat and stuff my self with delicious indulgence. I remember eating the big Cadbury Marble chocolate at one time while watching TV. I remember eating Ben & jerry's Fossil Fuel the whole tub to myself. I remember eating loads of mashed potato, mac & cheese, marshmallows. Not forgetting Candy Cane! Those were over Christmas Vacation '06. Simply the best. It was Christmas Eve that day. I ate those stuffs with my family and relatives. haha i remember my wackiest cousins declaring our own christmas dinner on that day. Coincidently we were having roast beef, grilled chicken, all of the stuffs i mentioned above, loads of ice-creams and chocolates and many others... HAHAHA...
How i wish the food i feel like eating pops up right in front of me whenever i wanna eat 'em.
I'm at my cousin's place now and i don't feel like going home. Then again I do not wanna sleep here.
Someone is not calling or smsing me these days. I am bored.
ALVIDA!!!Labels: call me when YOU care
SLurBp @ 10:15 pm
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Hard Times
Hey,
I am going through a rough patch right now. Recently there's some event at my uncle's place... (an event that happens every single bloody year!) This year i chose NOT to help all! I helped only a little. As expected after the event like one day later i got scolded and shouted at blah blah blah. It was both my parents who scolded me. My mom scolded more...
I am so against that uncle on mine for having that event every single year. URGH! My life is not so bright these days. I am not working. I need Money. I need to mug like crazy.
Mujhe phaisay ko bahut zarurat hai. Itna vaqt hamara paas nahin hai. Kali hain hamara zindagi is saal ko. Kaash mera zindagi thoda ease karte hain...
Boo-Hoo! I need money. I wanna eat.
My teeth is aching! I think I'm growing wisdom tooth on both ends on the top row. ITS SO PAINFUL! I can't stand it! URGH!!!
My computer is still rosak! How i wish my life is easier...
ALVIDA!Labels: Ease a little
SLurBp @ 9:50 pm
Monday, June 02, 2008
What Do YOU Say
Hey,
Has not been blogging for about a week i think. I'm at my couzin's place now... SleepOver! I miss blogging so much! I've got loadz to blog.
Went to Parkway Parade yesterday with some of my couzins. They did some shopping while i just stood there and stone! Checked out some stuffs then went to Delifrance to eat. After that went back home. On the way back, while in the bus, i saw my 2 of my couzins texting each other. And the best part is, they were talking about me! But then again, that is like SO whatever! I don't even give a shit.
I secretly found out that I've been lying to one of my couzin lots of time! Don't ask me how i found out, i just did. According to that couzin of mine, I've been lying to the person like alot of time since last time. I find it so so funny.
Now i am like asking myself should i continue with my lying act or just be honest most of the times and stop lying...?
From the whole of last last Friday afternoon till the morning of last Friday i was so so full of myself. 'Shiok-Sendiri' to be exact! Somehow or rather i sort of know that i am going to be deceived on that day. I just knew it. When i thought of it in the morning, i sort of knew that its going to last only until halfway through the afternoon. And i was absolutely right! There i was at the void deck nearest to the place i rightfully and lawfully should be, standing and waiting for the whole routine to be over. The thought of: How sinful am I, did cross my mind like a million times. (then again, I AM A SINNER!) When suddenly i tilt right and saw the car! The same old ***** ****** **** car. Just that its parked on the other side of the carpark. When i saw the car there, i thought maybe the reason why the car is parked there is exactly why the reason i think it is. Moments later, I saw the car owner walking towards the car and soon enough, the person drove off. Silly of me to even think that the owner is a Muslim. I mean if the person is, then the person wouldn't be there at that point of time. The person should be at somewhere where the person is rightfully and lawfully should be. Exactly where I should be! I am crushed. I think i deserve it though. Its like I'm finding trouble for myself.
I am feeling so sick these days. Especially at home. I feel so sick and so, i don't know how to describe it. I feel like there's something missing in my life.
The thought of what happened that time with those useless rubbish idiots could have affected me, that's why I am feeling this way. Then i told myself NO! NEVER! Those asshole won't even affect me a single bit! They are just a complete waste of time!
I asked myself again what is it.
Possibly its because of my computer! Yeah that's a complete possibility! I'm hopeless and can't do LOTS of things because of my spoilt-beyond-repair-kind-of-spoilt computer. The rest of it I really don't know. Not a single clue.
I've put on weight. Like seriously! There's a gap whole in my life right now and I'm like filling it up with food! I'm hungry most of the time. I eat and i eat and i eat and i eat.
MY LIFE IS A GIANT SUCKING WHOLE OF NOTHINGNESS!
I hate it! URGH! I miss playing The Sims 2 PC game. That's like the best game I've ever played. I really enjoy the game so much. Plus its expansion pack! WoW! Gosh I need a life! Or rather, "Why don't YOU give me back...?"
I wanna eat Pasta, Burrito, Cookies, Burger King, Bacon Bites, CHOCOLATES!, Pizza, Satay, Famous Amos, Calamari Rings, Ben & Jerry's, Go Go Franks, Toast Box, KFC's Bandito, White-Chocolate Raspberry Cheesecake, Waffles, McDonald's Hotcakes, Char Kuay Teow, Fish & Co, Maltese Balls, Onion Rings, Custards, Pretzels, Rotiboy.
Somebody Get Me Those STUFFS so i can EAT! - I am so random, I know.
ALVIDA!!!Labels: Tell me when YOU figure it out
SLurBp @ 10:15 pm
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Inner-Self - Absorbed
Char Dino Ka Pyar O Rabba
Kitne Zamane Ki Lambi Judai
Maine Nazron Se Tujhe Choo Liya
Sajde Sar Jhukta Hai Asmaan Se
Bin Maange Yeh Jahan Pa Liya
Tujh Mein Rab Dikhta Hai Zara sa
The Heir
Fhariz Khan
a Virgo
am 19
Forever Undecisive
By His Side
His Family
Chocolates
Bvlgari
Naaginn
Harry Potter
Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna
Books
Music/M.O.S + Movies
Food!
Please Rot
Himselve
The "NONEs"
Trend Followers
Dogs and Bitches
Pathetic Losers
Worthless Cowards
Self-Absorbed Assholes
Irritating Specimens
Desires
$$$ - Loads of it!
Licence to Fly
Multi-Lingualable
Louis Vuitton Damier Geant Canvas
Gucci by Gucci Pour Homme EDT
Transformable
Bvlgari Parfums and Accessoires
Ben & Jerry's Forever
A Few Words
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