Rants of the Heir

Birthday!

2011-09-12T23:36:00.001+08:00

Hey!

Its my Birthday today! I turn double twos today! Which means I'm 22 years old now. Lets hope a prosperous life for me. May Allah bless and guide me to be successful. May Allah bless me with happiness. Amin

Alvida!

Lose My Mind

2011-05-12T14:29:00.000+08:00

Oh Oh Oh

They say that time heals everything
They don't know you and the scars you bring
Oh Oh Oh
Cause you left a jagged hole and I can't stand it anymore

If heart ache was a physical pain
I could face it, I could face it
But you're hurting me from inside of my head
I can't take it, I can't take it
I'm gonna Lose My Mind, Lose My Mind

I'd erase my thoughts if only I knew how
Fill my head with white noise
If it would drown you out, kill the sound

If heart ache was a physical pain
I could face it, I could face it
But you're hurting me from inside of my head
I can't take it, I can't take it
I'm gonna Lose My Mind, Lose My Mind

And I'd rather be crazy, I'd rather go insane
Then having you stalk my every thought
Then having you here inside my heart

Oh Oh Oh

If heart ache was a physical pain
I could face it, I could face it
But you're hurting me from inside of my head
I can't take it, I can't take it
I'm gonna Lose My Mind, Lose my Mind

Oh Oh Oh

Check

2011-05-04T16:59:00.001+08:00

Hey,

The weather today is uber awesome.

My project is finishing and it is coming to an end real soon

Lets hope I get really good attachment one that I would Love

Alvida

Lets Move On

2011-04-26T12:35:00.002+08:00

Hey,

~~~

Avoid the bad seed. That's what everyone says. That should be easy. But not when you're kinda close with the bad seed. As for that entire clan of Bad Seed(s) one knows how to limit themselve. Like that is easy. Just avoid them - big time! No controversies or conflicts or tensions will surface. As simple as that. As for the other bad seeds from all over, SERIOUSLY AVOID THEM. There. Done. Period.

~~~

Speaking of period, I think i've removed every single bit of period from my life. That is good. Like in future times like in near future like next week or what when I get myself an Iphone, there will NOT be period on my phone. :)

I can't wait to start attachment! Lets hope I do extremely well for my FYP and lets hope I score A for my FYP. Lets hope I get good attachment with good salary with good working hours.

Let's hope I get the $$$ soon. Like real soon. I have to buy a new phone - Iphone that is. I have to terminate that whatever necessary service provider from that somewhere.

Seriously its important to find a group of really nice friends. Not those pretentious fake bastards. And also in a group of friends it is important that you have one or two that is really good such that you know they've got your back and will never stab you from the back. AND it is also crucial that you identify the bad seed such that you know how to behave with these kinda people and what to say and what not to say with these SOBs. :)

Alvida!

Lets Hope Seriously

2011-04-19T11:48:00.003+08:00

Hey,

This week is already week 7 of the FYP. This means we are half way through FYP. Another 4 weeks of project, 1 week of reports and slides making and then the final week, which is week 12, and that is the final presentation!

After that I shall start my attachment. Lets hope I'm being posted to a nice, decent company for my attachment. Lets hope the company is somewhere in the east, Airport preferably! heh. Lets hope I will do nothing related to engineering for my attachment. Lets hope I get to do something fun like business like or passenger handling or management for my attachment. Lets hope I get shift hours and not office hours. Lets hope I'm being paid well for the 3 months of attachment and also with benefits like 'leave' etc.

Oh I did fairly well for my year 2 sem 2. I passed everything. GPA improved. Now I'm in year 3 sem 1 and its already the middle of FYP. My year 3 started 6 weeks ago. Like Im left with 6 weeks of FYP and then its attachment and then its holidays! 2 months break! Oh I can't wait for that!

I've been meaning to blog but I just couldn't find the time. FYP has been alright I guess. There's just so much things for me to blog about.

Everyone should remember to only spend within limit. If you earn about $5000 per month then you should NEVER spend more than $4000 a month. AND people's wealth and property are not ours so don't dwell or dream on them.

I seriously hope I would get the money that I am entitled to so that I can pay my bills, buy myself an Iphone and be relieved.

Oh my gastric is getting pretty serious. I cannot handle too much deep fried oily food. Last night's Popeyes was indeed nightmarish. I feel like barfing just the thought of it.

Alvida.

And That Is

2011-03-08T09:01:00.002+08:00

Hey,

Guess what, I'm in Year 3 now! Final year of my Poly life! Yesterday it started. Yesterday begins Final Year Project. Simply said today is the 2nd day of FYP. The project that I've been assigned to is not difficult I'd say. It is very theoretical. I have to do research on this particular subject and evaluate on that as much as possible.

The bigger picture for my project is ultimately to compose a new course and find the suitable and relavant modules that comes with the course. Like what are the modules that will be learnt in this course. My supervisor said we're are doing this project to come up with a new course for the part-timers. Kinda cool actually I think.

The target audience for this particular course would be people from the industry who will be doing part-time studying in the school. Therefore the terminologies used would be that of the understanding of these people.

I appreciate this project since its all theory and no practical. Like I don't have to do any CAD drawing or programming or Designing or whatsoever. Its all theory like researching, details, facts, evalutation and all that. Let's hope it stays the way it is. But sometimes it can be very mundane. Like the number of hours is just too taxing. If its 6 hours per day then it would be fine. But its 9 1/2 hours monday to thursday and 8 hours on friday for 12 weeks! and now its only week 1.

I have a partner though for this FYP. The two of us we share two supervisor. One is the head supervisor and the other one is the supervisor. So far we've met the supervisor. The head supervisor we have yet to meet. Then again its just the second day right. We havethe rest of this week and another 11 weeks to see that other supervisor. These supervisors are actually lecturers from the school. For FYP they are called supervisors. Everyone has different supervisors. If you are doing partner work then you'll share supervisors.

Earlier my supervisor stopped by to talk to us further about our project. He then look at what we have done so far. He's impressed with the research and the work that we've done by far. Then he brought us around, tour the labs for further understanding of the project. Now we're back here in the lab, in our work space but with better understanding of the project.

Already there's an inside joke between students like when they pass by each other they'll ask: "eh! where's your office? hahaha." And then the usual: "How's FYP? what's your project like" Everyone is located at various labs and various level. The school really make it feel like as though we are really working. Like we clock in and out the regular office hours. Everyone has their own work area, also known as 'the office' like everyone will have their own office, their own space. Everyone has their own task to do. You have 2 short breaks: one morning and one late afternoon and 1 long break which is the lunch time. It really feels like working. One thing missing is salary. If the school decides to pay us, even if its the minimum like $300 per month, then it is already like working.

All in all it is fine and it should be. I am okay with they way it is actually. Time flies after all right.

I found some cool facts on how to lose weight or lose some fats from a particular area on the body or how to keep fit. I shall blog about it another time perhaps. I have a feeling I'll be blogging oftenly. Oh well.

Alvida!

Oh Guess What

2011-03-06T01:33:00.003+08:00

Hey,

My exams ended a few days ago. last paper was on wednesday, 2nd March 2011. Let's hope I pass all my modules and clear everything. Now I'm holidaying. So now I'm a free man!

Well not for long. 7th March 2011 which is tomorrow I'll be starting my FYP. Yes Monday its Year 3 already!

Annoying right I had like noon on wednesday, thursday and a weekend to enjoy as holidays before Year 3 starts.

But it'll all be fine I guess. I'll get the long break later end August to Mid October.

Been very busy lately. I promise I will blog more.

There's just so much going on right now on a more personal note. Stranger Stranger Stranger. Oh god it has not been easy at all

Alvida!

St. Valentine

2011-02-14T22:53:00.002+08:00

Hey,

As much as it is depressing and for what is worth of to be bothered here I am wishing everybody a Happy Valentine's Day.

I absolutely admire the legend or should I say the actual account to which this Valentine's Day was initiated and the dawn of that one day set to acknowledge Love. Of-course V-Day today is overrated. Mostly we see are couples all around with single strand of roses being handed out.

That is totally uncalled for. The general idea I guess for this day has long been different than what it used to be or what it should be. How the concept change like taken by storm.

On a personal note I would say I use to not be subjective of this very day. Before it would be just all that fun stuff those love stories all that string that comes with it. Now all I can feel is different. The negative vibe that I feel most especially today is like that of a projectile hitting the target by that moment of inertia in that Newton's Law. What the fuck is happening to me?

And there I was with that slightest possible hope wishing that particular stranger would be what I had hoped it would be giving the air. Little did I know Melbourne was what that took over. Depressing much - I would say.

Oh well that simply put my brain in that train of couldn't care less right. But my heart isn't complying as what was indicated to. This is not good. In fact it is never good. Lets just box it all up, throw it down the river and let it sail through the long island ocean. I shall call it a night. Alas, yet again Happy Valentine's Day.

Alvida.

The One That Got Away

2011-02-08T22:53:00.004+08:00

Summer after high school when we first met
We'd make out in your mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th birthday we got matching tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor and climb to the roof
Talked about our future like we had a clue
Never planned that one day I'd be losing you

In another life, You would be my girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be "us" against the world
In another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away

You were June and I was your Johnny Cash
Never one without the other, we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you, I put those records on

Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown, singing the blues
It's time to face the music, I'm no longer your muse

In another life, You would be my girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be "us" against the world
In another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

The One That Got Away

All this money can't buy me a time machine
Can't replace you with a million rings
I should have told you what you meant to me
Cause now I pay the price

In another life, You would be my girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be "us" against the world
In another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

The One That Got Away

In another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The One That Got Away

All That's In A Day

2011-01-23T17:16:00.004+08:00

Hey,

I'm doing my reports on a Sunday - I know Right! When did I ever do any school related work on a Sunday. Oh damn these reports.

I'm hoping my cousin's ipod is working just fine and I can upload more songs into the ipod. I'm currently saving up money to buy myself a decent MP3 or an Ipod - preferably an Itouch perhaps. I don't know.

Speaking of which I am in need of money big time now. Like seriously $$$!

Attended a cousin's wedding yesterday. Its really nice the reception. It looks like a pretty expensive wedding. Wonder how much was spent on all that. There's this fish that was awesome. I woke up this morning craving for that fish. There was that brownies. All in all the food was decent. The best part of the wedding was of-course the Dance! It wouldn't be an Indian wedding without all the singing and dancing, mainly dancing right! My cousin qoutes it as a 'Bollywedding'. It very well was. The dancing was so much fun.

F and me we found out online (ok FB! to be exact) some serious family tension shit.

Oh damn! I'm suppose to be doing my reports but instead I'm doing everything else but the reports. I hate school big time right now.

I'm feeling overwhelmed right now and I fucking wonder why.

Alvida!

Beautiful Weather Today

2011-01-10T22:30:00.003+08:00

Hey,

The weather today is really beautiful. There was no sun. It was cloudy, strong breeze, showers now and then. The best part is no thunder and lightning. Its reasonable cold everytime. Really Beautiful. How I wish the weather is like this most of the days. Not everyday though. We do need the sun as well.

I wanna read that book: Susanna's Seven Husbands. If only I have grasp my hands on that book. I'm sure the story line is intriguing. I realize I can be hooked on to books. I absolutely love reading fiction story books. Its really fun.

How wonderful would it be if I have like $12 000 coming in montly. That too just by simply idling around and not doing anything major in particular that is. Well don't we all wish for just that. I would love to have $$$ on me right now more than ever.

Alvida

First of 2011

2011-01-01T01:23:00.003+08:00

Hey,

Its 2011 already.

So much has happened over the last year, 2010 that is. So much has been gained and lost. Still in some ways I feel like my life is just beginning.

For I've tasted how it is the feeling to be working, to be earning. Though its only a month worth, I can really feel the importance of money. If ever there is a lesson I've learnt do not overspend ever that is. I am hoping I would manage to save up, spend the minimum possible and eventually grow the money that I have on me.

For I've tasted how it is the feeling of clubbing. Awesome it is for music lovers. I had a really good time for that couple of times I've been at the club. The Club scene, the music, the dance etc all of it that is fun. NEVER did I drink of-course and never will. And I am done clubbing. I don't see myself clubbing anytime soon and I hope it stays the way it is.

For I've tasted how it is the feeling of despair. The subject with relevance to this matter would most definitely be personal relationship. I have yet to land myself a significant other. Yes I'm just pathetic that way. Most of the time I prefer to be single, to be independent. But at times I prefer to have that someone a complete stranger to which the relationship would blossom to Love.

2010 has been really an OKAY year for me. I thought everything was just fine. No extreme highlights.

I am hoping for 2011 to be a reall good year for me. I'm hoping I get the speciallisation I really want giving its my 3rd year, final year in Poly. I'm hoping I would have money and lots of it this year. I'm hoping this year would be nice to me and it would be easy for strangers to approach me and we hit it off eventually. :)

Optimism has always been the way.

:)

Alvida!

Mid Day Post

2010-12-08T14:40:00.003+08:00

Hey,

I'm in school now having my Data Analysis lesson. This module is annoying. The lecturer isn't making it any easy. Too much Data to handle and whatever steps! URGH!

Oh my stomach is slowly healing. I hope it heals asap. I need to be healthy to start mugging for my common test which is next week!

Its december already is Christmas is nearing! I can't wait to go out Chocolate, Candy, Cakes shopping. This is the time of the year to indulge! I've been watching Christmas movies lately. Home Alone 1 & 2, Eloise At The Plaza, The Holiday. Stuffs I've watched before but I can never get tired of.

I am craving Swensen's big time! Earle Swensen's, Swensen's Dessert Buffet, Swensen's Boutique! Oh Boy can't wait to indulge!

Where can I get a big sum of money. I really need cash badly. Too much things to buy.

Oh looks like lesson is ending soon. I better finish up this entry. Hungry gotta grab something to eat.

Alvida!

Just Like That

2010-11-29T22:29:00.003+08:00

Hey,

Ok my Mason is coming back to Singapore this Sunday! Like finally! Can't wait to lay my eyes on that precious thing!

I am kinda excited for the Sentosa trip this Saturday. Its an intimate outing with Lovely cousin, F and A! and also NYP mates S and F. Hopefully everyone make it.

I am addicted to reading the Gargoyle. Its a really exciting story. If only the book isn't thick. I'd bring it with me everywhere. Especially to school. It would administer the long bus ride.

Alvida

What Like Really

2010-11-22T21:53:00.002+08:00

Hey,

Ok I just finished clearing my 3000 over inbox full hotmail. C-R-A-Z-Y!

I realise I'm still blogging and I'm a constant blogger. I Lover blogger. I see myself blogging for a long time. A number of people are on live journal, onsugar, onsalt, onvinegaro or whatever. I shall stick to blogger!

Tomorrow long day! 8am - 6pm! Stupid shit sey.

One thing is on my mind: HARRY POTTER! Must go watch it real soon.

I wanna watch Tees Maar Khan too in December. Can't wait for that. Katrina Kaif is really gorgeous!

Ok so there's this tamil song I'm in Love with. Its really nice.

Alvida!

O-M-G!

2010-11-11T00:12:00.002+08:00

Hey,

Ok WHOA! So long I haven't been blogging. Why oh why. I've been busy I guess. Of-course I did work in this fucked up company over my sem break that which ended 4 weeks ago. Then school reopens. Year 2 Sem 2 now. So all in all have been really busy.

PLUS! The Vampire Diaries is what have been keeping me busy most of the time. Its like I've been compelled to watch that show and not do anything else. Hah! That said I really should be watching the next episode already.

And yes I fucking have a quiz tomorrow and I haven't revise yet. This is crazy. School have been like so far so good.

So I experimented clubbing. Never thought I would ever say this but I actually enjoy clubbing. Like I experience a whole new world - night world especially. And it was fun! Especially Clarke Quay. I love that place so much.

Alvida

Seriously

2010-09-26T22:46:00.001+08:00

Hey,

Have not been blogging for a while again. Ok work is so not fun! it is annoying. But nevermind it is just temporary so its fine.

Alvida

My 21st Birthday

2010-09-12T23:35:00.003+08:00

Hey,

September 12, 2010. Today 21 years ago, September 12 1989, I was born. So this makes my 21st Birthday. Surprisingly I had the best Birthday ever of all birthdays in my life. I am really happy and just contented. I just love the events that took place today.

First of all my Birthday falls on 3rd Syawal which is the 3rd day of Raya. So of-course my family together with my relatives go jalan Raya. So that's 10 families total and that is alot! That also mean I get to spend one whole day with family and relatives - people I love, cherish and treasure most. That alone makes this birthday special and really a blessing and gift from Allah.

Second, upon visiting to other relatives' homes somehow it got to them that it is my birthday. So I get more $$$ and also my uncle played a Birthday piece for me on the Piano! That is really sweet. Touched much! The best yet is the last house for the day which is my aunt's place. Everyone get together, my aunt and uncle cooked for us! That also adds the specialness. Best yet I was suprised with a Birthday cake with lighted candles and everyone was singing the birthday song, clapping and cheering. There were 3 birthday songs in 3 different languanges - english, malay and hindi! How fun was it!

Third, I didn't get sabo! hahaha. Thank goodness! Who wanna be sabo-ed especially when you're wearing baju Raya?! And I'm simply contented, happy and appreciative of the events on my 21st birthday. Really impromtu but everything went perfectly fine. Thank Allah big time for that. And also I love it how I get to be with my big family relative on my 21st Birthday.

So I'm 21 years old now. Reached the 'legal' age finally. Suddenly I feel excited to unravel the world.

Alvida.

Show The Ropes

2010-09-02T22:47:00.003+08:00

Hey,

Ok I really need to blog more often sey. I really love blogging. But sometimes I'm lazy. :P

I saw someone today. Some stranger. I think about that stranger all the way in the bus.

I feel like eating donuts and lots of it.

Alvida

Catch Up!

2010-08-22T23:13:00.002+08:00

Hey,

I've not been blogging for over a million years! Haha ok prolly for a few weeks. I've been super busy. And today is the 12th day of Ramadan, Muslim's holy month.

Today was so much fun. I did study for about an hour but I wasn't sure if anything I study actually goes in this brain. Buka, terawih and get together at my atuk's place sure is awesomely fun. I love it. I love my big family.

I am seriously worried for my exams. I hope I study enough for the papers. I hope I pass all my papers and all my modules. I hope I move on to the next semester with a breeze. Insya Allah.

Guess what?! Tonight is the season premier of Keeping Up With The Kardashians season 5 and I have to wait till Tuesday or Wednesday to watch it! Bollocks! I wish I have the American E! where I can watch latest shows as per written and hyped on the internet.

Ok its already midnight and I can feel the presence of migrane lingering so Imma call it a night and go to sleep since I'm not sleeping after sahur tomorrow in a quest to study for exams.

Alvida.

Ringing Bells Everywhere

2010-07-19T22:51:00.004+08:00

Hey,

I really want an Iphone. It is really good. Wish I could get an Iphone right now.

When it comes to movies I think I suck big time. Like most people around me would have watched most movies and I have yet to watch those movies. The thing about me is that if I missed a particular movie at the cinema then that's it. Its hard for me to sit and watch movie at home. Like I would switch to other channels, be distracted to other shows and what not. Unlike at the cinema where I'm sort of 'trapped' in the cinema hall and having paid that much for the tickets so I would sit. Hahaha. Weird right.

I'm hooked to Baking Life on facebook. Hah! Who'd knew that game is just entertaining. I like that game because I get to 'bake' desserts figuratively. Isn't it fun?! But everytime I'll be like: I want cookies, I want cheesecake, I want Donuts!

There's something that I posted on fb but I couldn't post the entire thing all because of the limited characters allowed. So here goes:

That would totally explain your behavior: self-possessed immature byotch. I suggest you invest in a mirror. You really need one. You bore me bitch. Big time! Like I'm above you in every aspect so don't even dream to think you're better, in demand or whatever bullshit that goes on in your fucked up brain. You display the image of a mentally deranged clown when you roam around - just like a retarded dog. Being materialistic when you're clearly not even worth a dime is so not cool. Frankly speaking, only desperate people would ever wanna hook up with you. That shows how pathetic you are that no sane human-being would even consider liking you. And I feel sorry for you. Seriously fucking grow up and simply fuck off. The epitome of loser - that's you moronic bastard.

Hopefully the designated jackass to which this is intended to would lay eyes upon this and be burned - figuratively of-course.

I am desperately craving for that Caramel Cheesecake Colossal from Fish & Co. Best Damn cheesecake ever! Cheese fulfilled.

Oh wait! I read some piece of new online earlier and it is just depressing. It has something to do with one of my favourite people over in europe. Its just depressing and heartbreaking.

I am feeling super sleepy now so I think I shall go to sleep.

Alvida.

Satisfying Gratification

2010-07-14T23:40:00.003+08:00

Hey,

Today is a really short day in school. Thermofluid lab ended a week ago so from now (week 13) until week 16 there's no more lab. Basically its until the semester ends. So on wednesdays its just 2 hours of GS.

Yesterday I recieve this text message saying I have to be in school today at 12 as I had to meet a certain lecturer. GS is not until 1pm. I totally forget about the meeting with this particular unknown lecturer and its minutes to 12pm and I'm still at home. So I cabbed to school. What a waste of $12. Bloody annoying.

GS lasted for 2 hours and after which Skittles and I, we head back to Tampines. We were hungry by then or at least I was. So we went to the basement of TM with thoughts of eating at Katrina. BUT! (there's always a but) Somehow we were sort of drifted and we arrived at the entrance of Fish & Co. We entered without hesitation.

We had the student deal each which is $6.90 net. It was so much fun. The awesome fish, the awesome fried calamari rings, awesome LEMON BUTTER and everything else.

After we're done with our meal we ordered the dessert. They serve cakes and mostly cheesecake with a few chocolate cake. Seeing the menu we were really torn and couldn't decide onto which cake we shall get. We asked the waitress for her opinion and recomendation. She recomemded this chocolate cake which looked really nice. But no I opted for something cheesy as in I wanna eat cheesecake. And so we took the cake she recommended which is Caramel Cheesecake Colossal.

That cake is just HEAVEN! The best damn cheesecake I've ever tasted in my entire life! The crumble at the bottom is not crumble. Its this delicious rich and creamy pureed milk chocolate combination which is just awesome. The cheese part is just wonderful. Really rich, luscious and creamy cheesecake. Awesome much! And the top is this really nice caramel sauce with caramelised pecans. All in all that cake is just MARVELOUS.

After that we left. I head home while Skittles head somewhere.

Oh Gawd this depression feeling again... Funny stories I'm actually kinda liking it and surprisingly I find myself milking it as much as I can. Amazing! But seriously the depression what with the post-(something) moment.

Oh My God! It is really hot tonight! I think Imma shower first before I go to sleep tonight.

Alvida!

Clear State

2010-07-13T01:12:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Have been awake for more than 36 hours.

Good that there's no headaches or whatsoever.

Better go to sleep now.

Alvida

Apprehensing The Emphasized

2010-07-05T22:47:00.004+08:00

Hey,

In movies, we learn the many characteristics of a hypocrite. Most of the time we observe the people in our life and segregate those hypocrites and those who are not. But little do we know despite segregation those hypocrites still walk amongst us and we would have any idea not but to fall ourselves into being victimized by these people.

How do we watch our back when such situation arises?

Trust is not something you get. Its something you earn. With trust comes respect. With respect comes tolerance. With tolerance comes sincerity. With sincerity comes positivity. All of which are qualities of good healthy living. But when trust is annihilated, it brings with it all of the other qualities.

Isn't that something really awful and who would want that?

For someone who really is a cold-hearted snake, its hard to pass them by. But once the heart is hurt and it starts sulking then it is really deficient. Efforts to be made and it will and has to require great prices. Situation will change and all will be placed behind and things will be better. But sadly lines will be drawn and that would permanently make things to be different.

Major highlights will ensure people remembers it forever now wouldn't it?

~ ~ ~

Twilight Eclipse is out and I really wanna watch it. I don't care if its not good or the book is better or whatever. I really wanna watch it.

If I am not wrong there's 2 presentations for 2 different modules this week. This is so not fun. I hate presenting.

Oh gawd! I am really shagged. I'm usually sleepy around 11pm onwards but when I go to sleep I just couldn't sleep. I will keep tossing and turning and not sleep. Bit annoying actually.

Alvida.

Inspirations and Dictate

2010-06-26T23:10:00.003+08:00

Hey,

Tomorrow will be the last day of the two weeks study break and I have yet to revise for common test next week. I am C-R-A-Z-Y! I shall mug for common test the whole of tomorrow and next week.

Seriously I feel like I've lost my mood towards school. I really do not know I guess when something is burning a serious hole then attempting it would just be dreading. But no. That is not the right attitude. I'm already in the middle of it. I'll just work hard to cross the other half and before I know it, I'm done! Yes and with discipline and optimism I believe I can handle school and actually graduate smoothly and with a good quality Diploma. And plus it is essential for my future.

I was hoping for Portugal to win the match against Brazil yesterday. They ought to score 3 goals and that would be good.

It would be nice if there isn't the need to worry for tomorrow, next week, next month, next year, 3 years down the road and so on. Often I crave for days where I just sit and do nothing. Quietly watching your life idly pass you by. Living day by day without a care in the world.

There can never be satisfaction in this world. That is what I observe by far. That polishes the imperfection of life. It makes it apparent especially with not the purest of heart owned by most of common people. Maybe most is a harsh word. Few might be appropriate. Then again whatever is being discussed and agreed by the heart and the brain nobody knows. Minus the empaths but seriously?

I seriously hope the spree is not for me. I also hope it wasn't me behind the reason you emerged out the aperture and what I thought might be you sighted upwards? I don't know but I'm hoping it is seriously not me. That is my hiding place. I need it when I'm sinfully running away from my obligation a few months once.

Analyzing for lemma is what I find a trouble right now.

Alvida.

Anticipation

2010-06-15T23:43:00.003+08:00

Hey,

Finally I get to blog. I've been feeling unwell for a few weeks. It was annoying. Now that holidays or should I say study break is here i've been feeling better. I think school is the reason for me being unwell. Damn school.

I just saw the trailer for Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. There's goinna be 2 parts to that. Part 1 will be out in theatres November 2010 and Part 2 July 2011. This is goinna be awesomely huge! It is sure to be massively good! I so can't wait for HPatDH! The last of its installment. Sad However I am that it is ending.

I need to study. Also I need to relax and enjoy serenity and do nothing. I wanna watch movies but not at the cinema. prolly I shall get a hair cut. I feel like having milo. I hope it rains. I love rain. Especially when I'm at home, indoors where I get to truly appreciate the rain. Uh! Lovely.

Alvida.

What Lies Hidden

2010-05-31T23:42:00.003+08:00

Hey,

Because of a few people I am stoning away waiting. Speaking of doing something productive, I decided to blog. Plus It has been ages since I last blogged.

I am eagerly anticipating this conference chat with a few particular people.

I am going through alot of emotional sentiment right now. Often I find myself way too deep in thoughts. What with whatever that is going on right before my eyes.

Shame to how naive those people are to not know that I am aware of everything. Pity much. Then again it is very much expected since kids are involved. But whatever. I couldn't care less.

If it brings joy in your day and or your life. Go ahead knock yourselves out. Honestly I don't really care.

Burn Bitches Burn.

I am having this same migrane since friday. I think its because I stayed up all night the night before and slept at about 7am on friday morning. To make things worst I woke up at about 10am and couldn't go back to sleep. This is not fun. I'm not up for stay ups no more if this is what I have to face.

I miss having a certain friend around. I really do. Absence make me appreciate them. Oh gawd! This is so not fun.

I have so much to say I really do. Sadly this migrane is not giving way. I guess I shall willingly surrender myself to my mattress and have a good night sleep. Maybe this migrane will go away tomorrow morning. Lets hope.

Alvida.

Undecisive Thoughts

2010-05-11T23:13:00.003+08:00

Hey,

Once again I take such a long break from blogging. I've been meaning to blog but I just don't have the time. School has been the reason for my busy being. I have quite a number of reports, projects and tests to handle. I should dive into my books and spend more time studying. I really wanna excel in all of my modules.

I spend the night at my cousin's place yesterday. I love his house area. Its very condusive and serene. I just love it there.

I accompanied my uncle today to Singtel. He wanted to sign up for a mobile phone line. I saw the Iphone price plan and it is tempting. Then again for some reason I do not know why as I think of changing my phone I grow fond of my phone. Like I'm falling in love with in all over again. I'm feeling the reluctant-ness of giving my phone up.

Therefore I've made my mind up I'm not changing my phone any time soon. I'm perfectly fine with the phone at I own right now.

I'm still contemplating on getting an Itouch. I really do not know whether I should get myself an Itouch or not. URGH!

I'm just sad that Betty ended. I mean why oh why? Such a great show and such a waste they decided to end it. Come on! Make me happy and come back for another 2 seasons. :)

I am loving Glee however. It is fun and nice. Not forgetting my 90210. Love love love it!

I've been having headache all day. It is really annoying. Freaking go away please.

I suddenly feel like eating A&W's waffles and drinking its root beer float.

Alas, time for bed now.

Alvida

Crazy Confusing Dilemma

2010-04-19T23:29:00.002+08:00

Hey,

First day of year 2 was... As expected. Started with lessons already. So much for first-day-relax crap. Have to buy Year 2 textbooks all. Most prolly I'll buy it on wednesday.

I have a crazy complexity. I thought of buying an Ipod Touch and it costs $300 over. I went online and saw this awesome promotion for Samsung Omnia Pro by Singtel and I'm tempted to do a recontract to get that phone. If I go for both Ipod Touch and that Samsung Omnia Pro, I'll have to pay about $420.

I checked again online for Iphone and with about $400 I'm able to get an Iphone and I have to recontract and upgrade my plan to about $40 per month.

So what now? $420 for Samsung Omnia Pro and Ipod Touch or $400 for Iphone with a monthly subscription of $40. I'm really torn.

I'm hoping for tomorrow to be a good day and so is every other day. I'm still hoping for money to suddenly appear right in front of me amounting about $640 000.00 . That would suffice.

Since school has re-opened I have decided that I wanna study really hard. I wanna ace all my module. I wanna get a good 4.0 GPA. Lets hope.

Ok off to bed now. - Damn school for having to sleep and wake up on time.

Alvida!

Anchored Movements

2010-04-18T22:42:00.004+08:00

Hey,

Its the end of the holidays. Next will be term break which is in mid June and following long holiday will be the next semestral break which is in the end of August right till mid October. So looking forward to that.

I've been meaning to blog for days. I've missed blogging so much. I'm in a I-Don't-Know-What-I'm-In mode right now.

My MP3 is dying and I thought if getting an Ipod Touch but its expensive. Times like this I wish I worked and would have $$$ to buy myself something nice.

I really don't get people who brag. Like what the fuck?! These people must have a really sad and deprived live that they would wanna do something like that. Fucking grow up like seriously.

I'm missing The Kardashians even more right now. Having said that, I'm so not looking forward to school re-open - ing tomorrow. How I wish the holidays are extended for another two weeks or something.

Alvida!

Vicinity Not Needed

2010-03-30T23:30:00.002+08:00

Hey,

I've been neglecting my blog again. Well this blog, private public blog, I have but not my private personal blog. I've been blogging much over at the other blog. I guess there's just so much to say that's too personal to share and all since that blog is completely private and personal. Only I can view that blog so....................

I seriously need to do sit ups, running and push ups. I have to do something. I hate this stupid BLOobies, my huge thigh, lovehandles, stomach - im like having a baby bump sia!

I wanna go to the beach before school reopens. I wanna have a nice golden-red-brown beach tan.

I wanna NOT work and have lots of money with me all the time.

I wanna breath clean fresh air every day and eat what I want when I want without having to run those carbs off and or without having myself bulge physically especially around the stomach and thigh area.

It is fun right to be a radio presenter. I've always wanted to be an RJ. It'll be fun to know what goes on behind the scene and how radio broadcasting is and everything.

I will need a haircut soon.

Alvida.

Give Me Directions

2010-03-21T01:58:00.002+08:00

Hey,

I wanna go to India. There's so much to see, so much to buy, so much to eat! India is a must to go and when I do, I wanna spend a month there.

I'm missing myself. I've been neglecting my blog for god knows whatever reasons. I'm clueless right now.

People do stupid things when they are in a relationship right? When a guy loves his girl and or when a girl loves her guy, they will be willingly and sincerely go the extra mile even up to an extend where they make a huge mess and a complete fool out of themselves. That is just not right. But sadly, they don't realize that they're being complete idiots until the very end where its too late.

Attraction.

How does one know when they are in love? How does one tell when one's friend is attracted to one? How does one react to surrounded 'give-and-take' and or 'give' and or 'take' Love?

When a person has been dissapointed a million times when it comes to Love, it is only natural for the person to be cold-hearted and ignorant when the person is being shoved with signs. But how does a person tell whether all of it that's approaching is just a matter of joke; for entertainment purposes, or all of it is real? Its really difficult.

Love comes uninvited. You never know when it will come and fade away. You wish for it but when it is there, you wish it did not.

It has been raining for the past couple of days. I'm telling you I'M LOVING IT! I love it when it rains, wind blowing, grey clouds all over. Its just beautiful.

I think I'm not feeling well. I've been waking up with headache and when I go to sleep I bring sinus along. Throughout the day I get stomach cramps, nausea, bitter-taste-feeling like FOREVER. I can't be pregnant right? No, I'm still a Virgin so how can that be? Haha omg! WTF?! What the hell!

Ok I'm tired.

Alvida

Not Quite

2010-03-17T23:42:00.003+08:00

Hey,

I've been watching alot of TV lately. Especially channel 80, E!

I'm like seriously annoyed at a certain friend.

I hope I get like a sponsorship and or a scholarship while I'm in poly currently. I would have a breeze of time. I'd love that completely.

Alvida

Rational Shouts

2010-03-08T23:42:00.004+08:00

Hey,

My nails keep growing! I'm annoyed by my nails. I'm like, didn't I cut you like a week ago?!

I'm sick right now. I'm having sore throat. I've been having headache for a few days now. Had sinus the other day and that was annoying. I had a slight fever too. Right now its abit of everything with gastric.

WAFARK?!

I love The Kardashians!

The internet is being super annoying right now. I'm so phoning up tomorrow and give them a piece of my mind. I'm sure they've been fuck by other customers too. They are so annoying! Urgh!

I'm liking this particular song from the movie 3 Idiots. Its really nice! Like 40/50s music.

I wanna be a pilot.

I wanna buy Ipod touch!

I wanna sleep.

Alvida!

Surburban Precedence Much

2010-03-05T22:32:00.006+08:00

Hey,

I've been spending quality time with my home lately. I slack around most of the time. I also did chores.

I sweep the floor almost everyday. I mop the floor every 2 days once and I do the laundry every 3 days once.

Knowing that I'm on my holidays my mum assigned me with chores, duties, errands and what not. About an hour ago she told me I have to iron the clothes which is piling. Then again I'm having fun doing housework.

I'd make a good househusband! haha LoL! WTF?!

Apart from all that, TV, FB!, The Sims 2 and all kept me busy. I've watched lots of series and waiting for each series's next episodes respectively.

With that said I think I'm not goinna look for a temp job. I'm having fun as it is slacking around, enjoying life at a really slow pace. I'll just have to not go out in order to keep my money save and salvage whatever that's left. :)

On the other hand however, most of my friends are out working. Some of them are forever out! Like I get texts from them informing me that they are out, partying, chilling, out for a drink, to the movies, go everywhere and all. Some of my friends went backpacking! They're in Bintan right now and tomorrow they're leaving for Bali. That's just great! I see them utilizing the time now seeing that its the holidays.

Everyone is out and about, living this hectic city life, having this single partying holidaying night life and all, living their lives out while I'm Betty Crocker-ed at home quietly polishing the 'Bree' in me until it gleam with perfection! Haha. I'm getting good at houseworks!

Its not cool to humiliate others.

I think I'm having fever.

Chocolate is freaking awesome.

Alvida!

What's What To Define

2010-03-01T23:47:00.004+08:00

Hey,

I'm having my own form on recession. Hah!

I suddenly feel the hole inside me. Whatever is it all about. This painful moments of unknowns.

I swear to god I'm cursing myself right now for having myself stoned and completely forgotten what I wanna blog on.

I wanna know how Dashing By Kim Kardashian smells like. I don't think its available in Singapore as yet. Just have to wait. :(

Oh gawd, I'm so stupid! I should have just said 'Hey' and go with the flow. When the FB! topic comes around I would ignore it completely and no one gets hurt. Therefore all leading to the no need of asking to clarify the knowings of one other! It will all be good right?! I wouldn't feel so fucked up, embarrassed and used. I just can't wait for 'Over' to finally sink in.

I went jogging earlier today and right now I can feel my muscles aching.

Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck

I'm super hungry right now.

Alvida.

Unlocking Leisure

2010-02-25T23:17:00.002+08:00

Hey,

Today was my last paper and it ended at 2.30pm. Since 3pm today I've started holidaying! My holidays have started! Exams over! Holidays Here! Yeay! Time to slack like really really slack! I'm just happy holidays here.

Hopefully I pass all my 7 modules. I'm OK with whatever GPA I get. All I know is that I want to pass all my 7 modules. I want to pass all my 7 modules. I want to pass all my 7 modules. I realize now that I've typed it three times. But hey!

Ok the internet is being annoying right now. I keep going on and off and on and off. This is so damn annoying.

Alvida.

Signs and Lights

2010-02-17T23:41:00.003+08:00

Hey,

I watched My Name Is Khan today. Excellent movie. I'm simply touched by the movie. Everyone should really go and watch it. Seriously good. That's the highlight of the day.

The lowlight is, my home phone number was changed accidently. Its really annoying. Tomorrow I have to call up and report the situation first thing in the morning. The old phone number MUST be retrieved back. We grew up with that number all along. That number is like 25 years old! Its part of our childhood! Everyone from my big family will know this set of numbers by heart even when they become senile in future times. By big family I'm refering to my family, relatives and all.

I can't wait for holidays to dawn! Oh wait! My last paper is next thursday which means by next friday I'm a free person! Yeay! This is what I've been looking forward to!

OMG! I went to Singtel the other day and checked with them regarding my plan and all. I was told that I'm able to recontract my plan already as by next month my plan will already be a year. When I recontract I can actually choose to get a new phone (must be paid for of-course!) and I can get Iphone at $248! Isn't that awesome or what?! Should I? Should I get the Iphone? I've always wanted to own something that's apple. I wanted Ipod touch, I wanted Macbook, I want Iphone now so should I? hmmm

It has been a really long time since I last had Ben & Jerry's Ice-Cream. Well if it weren't for the price I would have one tub of B&J's every week all to myself! After that I would round up and become fat. On second thought, I'm ok with the expensive price of that ice-cream. :)

I wanna watch episodes of The Kardashians, Glee and 90210. I can really spend hours on these. Don't worry holidays coming! I can have time to watch all dramas! Yes!

Alvida!

Sanguinely Prolonged Dictate

2010-02-16T23:25:00.004+08:00

Hey,

I went to the beach yesterday with big family. By big family I'm refering to my family and relatives. There were about 10 families. It was fun. Weather was rather dissapointing. I hoped for hot scorching blazing sun so I would get nice perfect beach tan at the end of the day but to no avail thanks to the clouds and kind sun to the rest who don't wanna be dark!

Everything else was just nice. It has been a long time since we last go to the beach. Thank god for the excellent spot despite the seriously packed Changi Beach.

Oh! I went cycling too yesterday at Changi Beach. Around 11am. We cycled all the way passed the SAF jetty or whatever and to what I know the 'other' side of Changi Beach. That place is just heaven! The pavement to the huge beautiful trees which has foggy effect. The ground was beautiful with green grass intercepting with brown hays I think. With the sea just by the side and the excellent sea breeze. Awesome! I never Knew that there's such a place. Its like in some valley of some cottage in some European country. :)

I believe that if a person decides to be a bitch to some people that person must at least do it well. Reason being people are not born stupid. Just with the simplest body language possible jugdgement will be realized. And that is just not right what with the person's acclaimed knowledge of attribution and all. Embarrassing isn't it? :)

Serious talking, exams next week! I must really study. Gawd! After that I will try my very best to get a part-time job. Its a must! I really need money.

I've got news for you. I'm done! Yes like finally. You're just not worth the time and effort and thoughts. You're just not it. Call me a big-headed bitch, an ass, pathetic whatever! I don't give a fucking shit no more baby. We could be good together but we don't. After all we were never there and we're not here either. We were stuck in the middle of somewhere and that's all. Just stucked somewhere which is unknown. But one thing that's for sure is I'm calling it over and putting an end to all of this. I'm moving on. You have moved on much earlier than I have. Sorry I'm just being stupid. So every happiness to you. My friends are right, being single is the best well that's what I've been my entire life: single. I thought you'd be my first but I was stupid and wrong right. Its ok. I've led a single life the entire time and I'm used to it. Bubbye now. :)

I wanna change my phone. If it weren't for the fucking expensive prices of the phones I would have changed my phone already. I'm eyeing on Samsung Omnia II, Sony Ericsson Satio and IPHONE! URGH!

Wouldn't it be nice if I have $3000.00 coming in every month. Don't anyone wish to give me that load of money every month? I'm a good boy and definitely not a spendthrift - ya right!

This is life right. There are lots of exciting movies to watch right now and I haven't have the time and money. :( gawd this blows!

Alvida!

Satisfaction Varied

2010-02-12T23:20:00.002+08:00

Hey,

A busy week. Had 2 common tests this week. Materials Technology was on Wednesday and had Maths Complimentary Studies common test today. Today's paper was rather pleasing. Its doable and manageable. I'm just happy. I left that LT feeling happy!

After we're done with the common test, my friend and I we ate Mcbreakfast in school! IKR! I've been wanting to eat mcbreakfast for days and finally today I satisfy my Mcbreakfast craving!

We took 72 and head home. I met up with a cousin chilled for a while and then head to Airport to be with another cousin. Chilled for a few hours and I head home.

I've been watching GLEE and that show is really growing on me. I like it. Its nice and fun to watch.

I can't believe this. I'm left with 3 exam papers and its HOLIDAYS! Goinna mug for these 3 papers and then its Happy hours!

Valentine's Day is this Sunday. I've a friend who's birthday in on the 14th. Cool huh?! The best part is she will always have a date each year on V day.

I realized that I have eye bag! Well yes after days of sleeping for about 4-6 hours everyday why wouldn't I develope eye bag? Its really annoying and I want it gone.

I'm sleepy and lethargic is kicking in.

Alvida.

Relevant Short

2010-02-09T22:55:00.003+08:00

Hey,

I hope tomorrow's common test paper would be easy. I hope I'm able to do the paper tomorrow and eventually pass and also score it well.

I'm in love with white chocolate! Actually I've always loved white chocolate. I just love its sweetness and delicious flavour better than the usual milk chocolate.

I can't wait for holidays. Exams in 2 weeks time and in 3 weeks time, holidays! Though I'm searching for a part time job but hey there's a huge possibility I might not be able to land myself one so I have all the time in the world to slack! Watch movies! Play computer games! Not give a damn to whatever time I go to bed and whatever time I wake up. KARDASHIANS! I can watch them all day! Yes! So can't wait for holidays. :)

Alvida!

Eyes Wide Open

2010-02-03T22:44:00.003+08:00

Hey,

Today is the third day this week and I've been going to school at 9am for three days straight. On Monday school starts at 8am but I was an hour late. Tuesday school starts at 10am but I was an hour earlier. Today school starts at 9am and guess I'm right on time. :)

I'm craving for Earl's Swensens, Pizza Hut and Fish & Co.! I wanna eat medium rare prime rib, SUCCULENT tender calamari rings and clam chowder and also scrumptious surfer's seafood linguinne! URGH!

Ok I'm hungry now.

I should really go to sleep. I have an 8am lecture tomorrow and I slept really late last night and woke up real early this morning. Or should I say morning I slept in late and wake up damn early the same morning? I don't know.

I'm really stupid. I'm really stupid. I'm really stupid.

I wish I could go back to January 2001. The year I was in primary six. The year I was having my PSLE. How I wish I could go back there and actually ammend my life. I could be done by now. Then again I'm kinda liking school, friends and all right now. So I guess its ok right? I certainly hope so.

Alvida!

Redundant Much

2010-02-03T00:32:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Today is even better. There's no school and I came to school to basically finish up sem project report with friends, hang out for a while and then leave school to meet up with another friend for lunch.

I want to watch Jodha Akbar but I just haven't got the time. On that note I have to get a grip on my studies and eventually start sinking myself in revision! Next week is week 17 and I have two common test papers next week not to mention exams which is in week 19 - three weeks time! Oh gawd I'm terrified for the exams.

Suddenly its the air of boredom again. I wonder why. Annoying isn't it. Sometimes all I feel like doing is to chuck everything to a corner and basically just laze around every single day. I want to go out and watch movies, spend my day playing computer games, read books after books for hours, go running and or swimming. When can I have the time to have time to relax? Hopefully luxury time will come soon enough.

I don't know what its like with you. That was initial. Now I totally have you figured out. The reason you were contacting back with me is because you were single. Now I guess you're not.

How do you think it makes me feel when you told me you've broken up with your boyfriend last december and you were with him for 6 months and now he wants you back and you're seriously contemplating it? How do you think it makes me feel? Why the hell do you even tell me all that? Ironically you know all along I wanted to pick things up where we left them and you're shoving all this right into my face.

My say is that you're with him again now and so I'm no longer needed in your life until your next break up. What do you take me for? Still I'm saying I'm right here. I'm still hoping for a future of us together. Though right now all I can see is none. I'm still waiting. Am I stupid to continue to wait and not moving on. I don't know and I really don't.

Tomorrow's lecture day! I have lecture like all the way from 9am - 3pm. I should really not go to school tomorrow. I've been wasting time in school for two days straight already. I think I should go to school tomorrow. Its revision if I'm not wrong. It should be.

Sleepy now.

Alvida

Quad Checks

2010-02-01T21:48:00.005+08:00

Hey,

After four days..

Char din ki bhaat..

Después de cuatro días..

Today is a complete waste of a day in school. Redundant much. I should've just come to school at 1pm. I couldv'e saved my money spent on food today. Really annoying.

Tomorrow I have school for an hour only! How pathetic?! I'm coming an hour earlier to finish up sem project with some friends. By 11am tomorrow I shall be done. What the hell am I suppose to do after that? I don't wanna go home that early. Maybe I'll meet up my cousin for lunch. See how first. I'm in deep financial shit right now.

I went to the atm to withdraw some cash and I was shocked to see the balance amount in my account. I so have to stop spending every now and then and really control my expenditure.

I'm having this really throbbing headache (again) and I've swallowed 4 tablets of paracetemol - after 6 hours for two each time of-course. This is really bad. Does it has something to do with the weather? I really don't know. Another thing is that the nausea's back. I used to have it like a few years back then its gone but now I think its back. This is really not good.

Oh My God! Suddenly I feel so sick! Like seriously. Gawd this is bad! Like seriously.

I had the wierdest dream ever. I dreamt I was locked in a room more like confined and there's another guy inside it. I couldn't make out who the guy is at all. Its like all I can remember was this black man figure and he was always a few metres away from me. Funny thing I wasn't panicking or anything but full of questions. Like what the hell?!

Exams is coming I seriously need to start studying.

Ummm... Ummm... Ummm...

Alvida!

Depression Much

2010-01-27T21:15:00.003+08:00

Hey,

I'm really stressed out. I've completely no clue on mechanics. I really don't. Damn it.

I think I'm in depression, oh wait. I AM in depression. I don't know why.

Can I not go to school tomorrow?

I'm freaking hungry and there's no comfort food around.

Right now all I want to do is to be alone, listen to sad emotional songs so I can feel much more depressed. I know its sick but that is what I really wanna do - be sad and down even more. As usual school and everything else do not help.

Depression Depression Depression Depression Depression Depression

Oh gawd! This is crazy. I have zero mood.

Its not good right to eat late at night? Is it alright to consider the late night to be early morning which means super early breakfast.

I am so stressed out that I don't know what the hell I'm talking.

Alvida

What's Deep in Truth

2010-01-23T23:51:00.002+08:00

Hey,

Like a table that has been turned. A world that has been turned upside down. In just over a minute. All of it vanished like there was no history. Selfishness that keeps surfacing. Oh how badly hurting it is.

Weeks more like months of waiting. Minutes, hours, moments spent thinking.

Efforts as much as extreme concern washed away with complete dis-concerned.

All in all forced to witness despair and unnoticed-ness which adds up in whole.

Alas it is all too late now isn't it. There's no such thing as going back in time. Mistakes that has been committed will just have to be swollen and keep moving on. Love is pain and that is a theory which is as old as time. Once again the optimist will forget a lover, move on and find another lover who treats well and really appreciates everything while the pessimist will be stuck waiting and waiting and waiting and will forever be hung over a love story that has ended a long time ago.

Alvida

Sophist Bigoted Wretch Repine

2010-01-22T23:23:00.007+08:00

Hey,

The enter button on my laptop's keypad is pissing me off. Clearly there's a problem to it and I don't have a freaking clue what on earth is wrong with it! URGH!

I've too many things to juggle right now and this is the last thing I need! Pfft!

I received a call from this company regarding a part-time job. Its at Airport. I gave my personal information and when will I be able to start and all. Should everything fall into places, I'll be working the day after my last paper - which is 25th February and I shall start working on the 26th February! God this is exciting or what?! I'm goinna have money! Yeay!

I'm having gastric right now and the pain is excruciating! This is super annoying. Everyday I'm like have headache or gastric or headache or gastric. Sometimes both of them. On certain days its bonus: Sinus. Actually I've not had sinus in a really long time. Keeping my fingers cross. Hope I don't jinx it. I really don't want sinus.

I've been hearing some things that has been speculating around. It is really pissing me off. Some stupid fucking bitches and their whore-ass mouth. People are forever bitching about and never satisfied or never seem to not have a fucking problem with everyone.

I'm so going to get to the bottom if it all. I promise all of you fuckers that once I'm fully loaded you bitches are are goinna die! I mean it. All of you know what a person I am and what I'm capable of during confrontations. I have a filthy mouth so better watch out! You stupid bitches are so so dead. Especially this particular fat, ugly, stinky, dirty bitch! You are so so dead I'm telling you. Don't fucking mess with me you fucking pussies. Don't come and fuck around with me. I'm not the kinda the person you wanna fuck with. Better keep the distance and DON'T EVER, EVER, EVER THINK OF FUCKING AROUND WITH ME! You just wait. I know exactly how to deal with you stupid assholes. If you have a fucking problem with me fucking come straight to my face and talk to me. Don't be a coward and a hypocrite at the same time and bitch around behind my back and act all nice when I'm around. Who the fuck do you think you are?! Funny what you spread around are all lies and its actually all about you. You are so fuckingly stupid that you are indirectly telling people all about you. What a stupid ugly bitch! I'm a nice, honest, sincere person in every way but I'm also a bitch in every way should you decide to mess and or fuck around with me. So please do fear and just keep yourself to a corner and fucking fear me!

In case none of you understand whatever I'm saying:

Kau besar peh pukimak! Kau pikir kau sape?! Kau tak kena aku sape tau cibai! Ade hati kau nak hang aku?! Mari ah kalau brani. Kalau kau betol peh manusia kau datang sini jumpe aku! Kalau kau tak puas hati dengan aku fucking come to me and talk to my face. That way I can spit at your fuckingly ugly stupid face! PERANGAI MACAM ANAK SUNDAL! Oh wait! Kau memang besar peh anak sundal! Eh kau tau tak satu dunia tak percaye kau! Everyone sends out warning to avoid you. That shows how filthy you are! Kau besar peh binatang! Perangai macam sial sak! Pukimakkau bodoh! Mak bapak tak ajar peh budak!!!

You know there's nothing nice, good or positive about you! Just that you're a good cleaner. That fits you to be a housekeeper! Hey, you already look like one so might as well dress and act the part right! BURN! Your a fuckingly sick bitch! I just can't believe how fucked up you are! You know people change as they grow older and especially when they get the wake up call. But that's not the case for you. You will NEVER change! No amount of fucking alarm would make you realize whatever that you do. And this about you I've realized a long time ago! And now you're still the same! Nothing has changed. You're really pathetic! The epitome of a hypocritical cowardice bitch! That's you! I just feel sorry for you. You're a loser bitch! A LOSER!

With that said I hope those bitches better think twice before they ever come to me. I'm sure they'll be damn terrified to even think of talking to me. What a pathetically lame idiotic moronic stupid ugly dawgs...!

Oh god! I ate a lot today! There's McDonald's and there's Pizza and there's Cadbury chocolate the entire big block of marble! Gawd! But I like.. Eating makes me happy and given the depressingly sad and down moment or period that I'm going through right now, I shall eat more. It brings happiness and that is what I'm craving for right now.

I'm just jealous that almost everyone has an Iphone. Everyone but not me. I really wanna have an Iphone. Or at least an Ipod like Ipod Nano or Ipod Video or Ipod touch! That'll be cool right. Then again I'm a really grateful person. I'm happy with whatever electronic gadgets that I own right now. I've a perfectly decent phone and MP3 right now and I'm fine. :)

I'm super lazy to study but I really have to study. Its actually a lot easier to pass exams by studying so I'm just going to study. Its the weekends now and I'm just happy weekends are here. No school to go to and all I have to do is laze around. That is just A-W-E-S-O-M-E! I wish everyday is weekends so I don't have to do anything and don't have to stress myself out in any way.

Alvida!

Like A Wave Line

2010-01-20T23:29:00.004+08:00

Hey,

It has been crazy for me these past few days. More like few weeks. I have no idea why. There has been a lot of ups and downs for me. More like major drastic ups and suddenly the next moment a drastic down.

Its Wednesday today and that too is coming to an end in about 1/2 hours time. Its only three days into this week and I've completed reading 5 story books! With the current book I'm reading which is on its last few chapters, it shall be the sixth book. That is? I mean yes its good that I've been reading lots of books but it is also not good as I should be reading or revising or actually start studying my school stuff. The education things. The much more important part seeing that exams are in a month's time! Crazy!

I'm really feeling emotional right now. God knows why. Even I don't. I have this sudden feeling of not wanting to go to school and wanting to go out to work. I can't wait to start having a career. When I think of career, I think of Degree. What about degree? Well I would certainly love to get myself a degree, as in move on to Uni.

The grand plan was that once I'm done with Poly, I shall move right on to Uni. I think I shall do that. Pursue my degree programme then I shall start working or should I say career. Maybe then I shall let my 'education-conquest-spirit' rest a while and eventually 'learn' more about the real world out there - working world.

By this time in April, which is in about 3 months time, I'll be in year 2 already. I suddenly have this terrifying more like scared feeling at the pit of my stomach. I've been worrying a lot lately and it is all about school. Well most of it is about school. Some is just about a certain particular friend an individual who is a complete stranger, complete outsider, a personal friend of mine. It has been stressful.

I have an 8am lecture tomorrow followed by tutorials at 10am. At the sound of that I can feel my energy draining out of my system. School really is a pain right now.

For the record I did not want to blog at all today but right now I'm surprised to see the number of paragraphs I've managed all at one go. :)

I don't have much appetite to eat lately. I'm just eating to survive. I use to be passionate about food. At one stage I used to indulge and salvage every single bit of scrumptious food that enters my alimentary canal - from my mouth of-course. That's how digestion works in all. Now, I'm eating whatever that is there so long as I eat and drink just enough to go on with the day. This is insane right?

I would love to go swimming some day. Maybe soon. Maybe this coming holidays which is right after the exams. Speaking of which I've just reminded myself of the fuckload of studying that needs to be done! :(.. Urgh!

I'm sleepy now.

Alvida.

Factful Lashes

2010-01-18T22:42:00.005+08:00

Hey,

In the morning today I had a lot of things to think. I was in a state of blur and pissed. After talking or rather texting a cousin I feel much relieved. Its like some heavy load has been lifted off my stomach. I feel much better now. Thank-you dearest cousin. :)

Today was suppose to be my long day in school but I left school at about 11.30am. After maths lesson I left. I met up with another cousin for lunch and then head home. I don't know what has gotten into me. I just left. Funny huh.

I reached home at about 3pm. Chilled a while then at about 5pm I went out again. I went to the movies with another different cousin. We watched Pyaar Impossible. Ok movie. I enjoyed. I love watching romantic comedy movies. It takes my mind off things. After all that is what most people want right? I mean after a long day at work or school or just feeling sick of school or whatsoever, when they go to the movies, all they want is a peace of mind and to take things off for a while.

And indeed. I enjoyed the movie.

I need to get a grip of my studies. Its already week 14 and exams in 4 weeks time! Shit! I have exactly a month to study! I shall start studying from tomorrow onwards. There's a lot of memorizing and understanding of certain modules that needs to be done. Uff!

I hope I'm able to land myself a part-time job for this coming holidays. I really need money and I'm in bad shape - financially. Further more it wouldn't be holidays without money right?

I think I'm falling in love with Iphone. Then again, everyone does. Actually I'm happy with the mobile phone and MP3 player that I own right now.

Tired and sleepy. Tomorrow another long day in school. Uhh!

Alvida!

Pains of Figuratives

2010-01-16T22:56:00.003+08:00

Hey,

My oesophagus is in so much pain right now. Probably its the gastric. Really throbbing.

My report is half complete now. Yeay! I shall submit it online by tomorrow.

Lost for words much!

The ultimatum of extreme stonation. Annoying.

Take me to Disneyland and leave me there for three months.

Let me enjoy the semi-Valhallas ride. It shall rid of a certain pain.

Alvida!

Clear Thoughts Unclear Visions

2010-01-15T22:08:00.004+08:00

Hey,

I seriously have to blog. It has been three days and I really have to blog. I will try to remember just whatever I want to post about.

First things first, today is Friday, 15th January 2010 and its the dateline for submitting the individual report for EG1024 and gosh I'm not even close to quarter complete!

God damn it! Every time I open up that document, I end up stoning into screen. I can't think! I don't know what to do! This is stressing! URGH!

I was sick on Thursday which is yesterday. Went to the doctor and found out I might have some stomach symptoms but its seriously minor so nothing I've got to worry about. I just have to consume that load of medicines everyday and complete its course. That is painful.

This headache won't go away! Earlier today in school it was worst! Serious throbbing shit. I felt like banging my head against the wall. That don't even work of-course. So I was rummaging through my bag in search for some paracetemol. I was like panicking and shivering. That caught the attention of some people. Some even asked If I was ok. I gave that 'I-can't-be-bothered-stop-talking-to-me' smile and nod. I swallowed two tablets of that medicine and gulp down water like a thirsty track star who've just completed a 100km run!

This is getting seriously worst. Everyday headache? Something is not right somewhere. Perhaps the lack of sleep. Well we know its school to be blamed entirely for that.

I've got my exams time-table and its not until Mid-February onwards. So with that said, I have time to study. That should allow me to calm the pressure a little bit.

And yes! I've found my rings! Both rings I've found them. Yeay-ness! This is good.

Thank-you for the unwilling tilt. I'm shocked to see you in school today. Not surprised but shocked. On my way to school I somehow had this premonition that I would see you today and I eventually did.

I wanna watch TV. Wanna watch Hindi movies like Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna. I can totally watch that movie over and over again. I just love that movie so so much. In fact everyone should watch it.

Alvida.

Big Bits of Happiness

2010-01-12T22:41:00.002+08:00

Hey,

I never thought it would be this stressful. I think I have myself to blame for this. Screw school big time!

I've this thing where I'll repeat this particular few songs over and over again. Like I'm never tired of listening to it. I'm being told and very well informed that its a family problem actually. Lots of my relatives listens to some particular song that they like and would play it repeatably on a loop!

I'm just going to cut straight to the chase:

I'm really shocked, excited and happy that you called me today. All this waiting and pondering is worth it after all. My friends told me to move on. There are many other girls out there who I can chase after. I've tried moving on but all I think of is you, you and you. I really can't think of anyone else but you baby! Today when you called that clearly mean you still think and care for me. When you told me not to think hard and not to think too much, oh How I was lightened and relieved. I'm just happy now. Have a good day dear. :)

This throbbing headache won't go away. This is really deteriorating. 8 tablets of paracetemol already for the day and I'm still facing this pain. This is really bad!

Tomorrow is lecture day! I have lecture all the way. What an ideal day to not go to school.

There's this random guy who made a pass at me just now while I was on my way home. I got really scared and it was really weird. I went blank. All I could think of was How I wish I could have some donuts and I walked away as fast as I could. I must have donuts sometime soon.

Exams coming. OMG!

Alvida!

May The Brightness Be

2010-01-11T23:36:00.004+08:00

Hey,

All things considered a bad day. I'd say.

I've had one of the many bad days. One thing led on to the other. What could be worst my MP3 decides to go flat so I had to listen to people and their rants in the bus. Not to mention something that is really painful for me to see and hear. Its like slowly and steadily slicing through pieces of my heart with some Japanese Razors.

I wanna eat the twister fries and have strawberry milkshake at McDonald's. The epitome of fat but Whatever! Fats can be dealt with later.

I wanna plan a trip to KL. I've to start saving up money.

I had this really weird dream last night. I was in a car with my two other cousins. We were driving in some deserted and constricted area. I'm sure its Somewhere east because we passed by many abandoned schools and one of the building had this on its wall: Pasir Ris School. If I'd remember correctly the building was painted orange. Really weird isn't it? The sky was pitch black and everything was really dark. The buildings look terribly tainted and worn out left and right. Its a complete ghost town. The car lights were our only source for light. It should be night time right? Its really weird.

When I was just fooling around and not taking things seriously, you're madly in love with me. Now that I can't stop falling crazy in love with you, you're never there. I see you're just fooling around now. So where do we go here on? I'm really clueless. Fill me in.

As I sat by staring blankly into nothingness, drifted away by the sounds of music, you're all I think of. Of the songs which are just too painful to even hear. This is indeed torture. I solicit everyday hoping that I could go back in time, carefully writing our beautiful love story with you by my side. Salvaging and Indulging the sweet, sweet treasure that we once had and ensure its longevity ensured in times to come. I really miss You baby.

I really wanna go watch Sherlock Holmes.

I'm having this really throbbing headache right now, my muscles are aching everywhere and this stupid sore throat and chest won't go away. Its like my respiratory system is in pain on the whole. I've swallowed medicines after medicines and there's still no signs of cure. This is really bad. I'm too dependent on drugs and being complacent about it. I should really stop. It is not healing me, it is only deteriorating me even worst.

Amidst these series of misfortunes and sad, sad story, I found myself a piece of good news. Like a tiny ray of silver lining shining with the minimal amounht of light possible. I found one of my ring. The other ring and not the one I lost my heart to. But still I found it back and I'm just happy.

I'm really stressing. I've lots of reports, projects and tutorials to complete and time is really running. I really need to pull through and nail every school work together with school at the right spot. I have big plans for my education path and it starts right here right now where I'm still in Poly. I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hope not to jinx it.

With that I shall chew on some gastric tablets and head to bed. Another long day tomorrow to face. Oh boy!

Alvida!

In Lamhon Ke Daaman Mein

2010-01-09T22:19:00.002+08:00

In Lamhon Ke Daaman Mein
Pakiza Se Rishte Hain
Koi Kalma Mohabbat Ka
Dohrate Farishte Hain

Khamosh Si Hai Zameen Hairaan Sa Falak Hai
Ek Noor Hi Noor Sa Ab Asmaan Talak Hai

Nagmein Hi Nagmein Hai Jagti Soti Fizaon Mein
Husn Hai Sari Adaon Mein
Ishq Hai Jaise Hawaon Mein

Kaisa Yeh Ishq Hai
Kaisa Yeh Khwaab Hai
Kaisa Jazbaat Ka
Kaisa Sailab Hai

Din badle Raate Badli Baate Badli
Jeene Ke Andaaz Hi Badle Hain

In Lamhon Ke Daaman Mein
Pakiza Se Rishte Hain
Koi Kalma Mohabbat Ka
Dohrate Farishte Hain

Samay Ne Yeh Kya Kiya
Badal Hi Hai Khaya
Tumhein Maine Paa Liya
Mujhe Tumne Paaya

Mile Dekho Aise Hai Hum
Ke Do Sur Ho Jaise Madham
Koi Zyada Na Koi Kaam
Kise Aag Mein Ke Prem Aag Mein
Jalte Dono Hi The
Tan Bhi Hai Maan Bhi
Maan Bhi Hain Tan Bhi

Mere Khwaabon Ke Gulistaan Mein
Tumse Hi Tum Bahar Chaii Hai
Phoolon Mein Rang Nahi The Lekin
Inn Mein Khushboo Tumhi Se Aai Hai

Kyon Hai Yeh Arzoo
Kyon Hai Yeh Just Ju
Kyon Dil Bechain Hai
Kyon Dil Betaab Hai

Din Badle Raate Badli Baatein Badli
Jeene Ke Andaaz Hi Badle Hain

In Lamhon Ke Daaman Mein
Pakiza Se Rishte Hain
Koi Kalma Mohabbat Ka
Dohrate Farishte Hain

Nagmein Hi Nagmein Hai Jagti Soti Fizaon Mein
Husn Hai Sari Adaon Mein

Ishq Hai Jaise Hawaon Mein
Ishq Hai Jaise Hawaon Mein

Uncountable Points Now

2010-01-06T23:41:00.003+08:00

Hey,

I lost my other ring. Now both rings are lost. Boo-Hoo! This is bad!

I cannot believe you. Then again I'd expect that from you. A conniving bitch! That's what you are. You will never change. I won't ever trust you. Good luck trying to get anything from me. You and your twisted clan of stupid dogs.

This is super annoying. Its open house week and most people from different school gets home-based learning while we engineering students still have normal lessons on and have to come to school as per normal. FUCK man!

I'm broke. I need money.

Double Chocolate Hazelnut Chocolate Chip Cookies - The best damn cookies ever!

I've gained weight and this is serious.

I've school tomorrow and it starts at 8am.

Alvida!

The Delegations of Strength

2010-01-05T23:58:00.002+08:00

Hey,

All in a day's work, that's it. Now I can barely remember what went through, what went wrong and what went down.

I wonder why my visions are cloudy lately. Part of me saw the beautiful wonder and that lifts me up, oh how magnificent. Another part of me however can't seem to draw away from this disappointment, this unknowing pain that fills the vicinity. I pray for all of it to stop.

I really wish I have supernatural powers. I know it sounds tacky and childish and illogical but I really do wanna have some 'gifts'.

I learn from a few friends that this is all the work of nature and its all natural's accord. There's just something so convincing that took me away.

How does a person gets to be sure of what the uncertainties are? They just don't unfold themselves. To what extent are they all just coincidence? If its too much of a residential visits then It can't be coincidence right? How do we know how much of it is right or are we even right?

This is all one big blur.

Is it alright to consistently not trust people? Is is alright to constantly doubt others even if there's nothing left to doubt? Is it alright to continue keeping people in the dark and have that sympathetic feeling growing bigger and bigger inside? Alas, it all falls down to: Doubts and Instincts.

Life is full of mysteries, options and choices. The optimists would give it a hard thought and muster all the positive potential vibes around and go forth. The pessimists would always choose to believe and trust the untowards, go forth with whatever they have and then think of the options they're left with and the decision that they have to make.

So basically its about how you see things. What are your perceptions and how much is your capabilities mentally.

It is easy to grow old - just let nature takes it's course but its one whole different big thing to grow older mentally. It takes huge effort. Maturity, sense and logic will eventually starts to flow.

Alvida!

The Reverberation Causatum

2010-01-04T23:09:00.005+08:00

Hey,

I lost my ring. That is just sad. I had two and now I'm left with one. Sadly I lost the one I fall in love with. Is it kinky that I fall in love with my ring? Well Its more than just a ring. Nobody will ever understand.

My grandfather is unwell and he's at Terengganu. I'm really scared and worried sick. I pray for all's well.

At first I wondered whether this ring was real. Whether it was all a lie. It is the real thing to me. The ring became real to me as I waited for You. Had my heart broken by You, while still being happy with You.

I thought You would lose your mind when I thought You couldn't protect me. I was always thinking about You, worrying about You and missing You. It really is painful. loving You is so hard and painful but I can't stop falling in love with You.

You are all I think off lately. I could not help myself. Its like You accompany off-distraction. Am I going crazy? I think I'm crazy in love with You. You're my first ever and how I treasure You. My dearest PmhD_89, do come back to me. I'm waiting for the very day You'd take me back. Truth be told, I really miss You. I do hope we can be together again. You're the best thing ever baby.

I should really stop eating or at least control the flow of food I consume. Must start exercising already! Pfft! This is bad! Gaining weight is not an option. It never was. To indulge is easy. All I have to do is stuff my face with tubs of Ben & Jerry's ice-cream which is having promotion right now! Must have Ben & Jerry's Ice-Cream!

Alvida!

What Was Moderately Not

2010-01-03T22:13:00.002+08:00

Hey,

Its 2010 already. How time really flies. 2009 wasn't a good year at all for me so I'm just glad 2009 went by and its 2010 already.

I had 3 major fallouts in 2009. First is the whole SwissShit! Something to do with this part-time job that I had. Second is this whole problem that I had with an ex-classmate and this online stranger I've yet to meet. Third is the whole Polytechnic issue. Sadly there's no resolution to all of it.

Alas, all is calm ( I think ). Its 2010 now. Big hopes for my career in the future. :)

I wanna watch Sherlock Holmes.

I hate it whenever I communicate with a certain people, be it through texting or msn, and there's no response. That is just irritating.

There's a few things that I want in my life and it all adds to my future, my career. I feel that I shouldn't say anything in here but then again nobody reads my blog. So here goes.

I wanna transfer course to Aeronauticals and Aerospace Technologies. I wanna transfer by next semester such that by next semester, which is year 2, Semester 1, I'll be in the course Aeronauticals and Aerospace Technologies and in class AA0903. That'll be AWESOME!

Also, now I'm really hoping and wishing I get that sponsorship programme from RSAF. I wanna get that scholarship and sponsorship programme as well as I wanna have a career in RSAF. Most probably I'll be posted to either Changi or Paya Lebar Air-Base. That's the suitable career for me since its all about Aerospace and what not. That is what I want afterall - Aerospace, Aviation.

Avatar is good. Chipmunks 2 is entertaining.

The KL trip was Ouh-Kaye. I have to go KL again some other time.

I even sent myself a text. Just to make sure that card is able to receive messages. I did get some. That clearly means you've given up on me and don't wanna have anything to do with me. You're done. That is just sad because I'm hoping you'd reciprocate or something. But no. Merely friends or should I say merely acquaintance. That's what it is.

School starting tomorrow! As usual I'm not looking forward to school at all. How I wish it is extended for another week or so.

Time to start studying like a mad dog. Fun time is suspended for now until the end of February. Then holidays shall dawn and good times will cease once again.

Alvida!

White Christmas

2009-12-23T23:57:00.004+08:00

I'm dreaming of a White Christmas
Just like the ones I used to know
Where the treetops glisten,
and children listen
To hear sleigh bells in the snow

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
With every Christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright
And may all your Christmases be white

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
With every Christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright
And may all your Christmases be white

All I Want For Christmas Is You

2009-12-23T23:50:00.005+08:00

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
And I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree

I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
And I, I just wanna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe

I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for St. Nick
I won't even stay awake
To hear those magic reindeer click

Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding onto me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby, all I want for Christmas is you

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of childrens'
Laughter fills the air

And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me
The one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me, quickly

I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just wanna see my baby
Standing right outside my door

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby, all I want for Christmas is you

All I want for Christmas is you, baby

Let It Snow

2009-12-23T23:47:00.003+08:00

Oh the weather outside is frightful
But the fire is so delightful
And since we've no place to go
Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

It doesn't show signs of stopping
And I've bought some corn for popping
The lights are turned way down low
Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

When we finally kiss goodnight
How I'll hate going out in the storm!
But if you'll really hold me tight
All the way home I'll be warm

The fire is slowly dying
And, my dear, we're still goodbying
But as long as you love me so
Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

What's Sure

2009-12-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

Hey,

OK I will be going on a Holiday trip to KL this week and its confirm! No more contemplating. I am going. Yeay! Finally I'm going KL. Last I went there was Dec 2006 so now three years later, I'm going again. I'm so excited.

I wanna bring my camera along. No way I'm giving it to my uncle for his Bangkok trip which clashes with mine.

Lost for words. I admire the dwell. Who'd knew wandlore is such fascinating subject.

I'm having sudden cramps on both of my thigh. Annoying.

Alvida.

Redundant Much

2009-12-20T23:24:00.003+08:00

Hey,

Dearest cousin went to Malacca for a holiday trip, together with dear friend. For some reason I shall not name these few personnel. Breach of security. Ok I just realized it sounds pathetic but yes. Dearest cousin and me, we had a pact about keeping certain facts a secret or a hush-hush to a certain group of people who'd be acquaintance to the initial and let on for some. Crucial you know. Wouldn't want history to resurface right?

I'm craving for onion rings right now. This is bad right since its already late at night and I'm hungry.

I wanna go out and grab something to eat but my night buddies are out of town and some are too far away to make night outs which is redundant.

I love magnum white. It is really nice.

Alvida!

Stern Advocate

2009-12-18T23:04:00.003+08:00

Hey,

Its finally here! The holidays! I'm simply overwhelmed!

I was totally worried for no good reasons. Clearly there was nothing. I'm relieved.

As for the other, there definitely is something on. For some reason maybe being fat kind of showcases one's hidden agenda.

A:

I know you've been been bitching about me behind my back. I am totally aware of it. I totally don't give a fuck if you do. Its just too bad that you've got a problem with me. It is totally your problem. You are a plain fucking irritating fat donkey who is sensitively obsessed with your fucking self. I've heard the rumors that you spread around. As for now things are taken care off. If in the future this thing gets worst or for some reason you and your fat-and-crazy clicks make it worst, then its nothing but you deal with me. That's right! Don't you ever think that when I keep quiet I'm not doing anything. You are so fucking wrong! You have absolutely no idea what I'm capable of doing. Let me just warn you that I can turn the whole world against you. If you think you're a bitch then well here's news: I AM A BIGGER BITCH THAN YOU ARE! You have totally no idea! I don't do bad things but the trigger is damn near and you're really hitting it on! You don't know me at all! I'm tolerating you every single day. Just don't cross any wire or you're fucking dead! And I really mean it this time. You are a kid so whatever I can do to you or the pain that I'm able to inflict on you is something way beyond your mental capability. I won't touch on capacity because that's one section you're really good at. Dare to do anything, I'm telling you. You better watch it! I can make you suffer and I'm able to bring you down hard onto the ground even if it seems impossible literally. I can be your worst nightmare you freaking idiot! You are SO full of yourself and it makes me wanna puke. Touch me if you dare and I swear to god you'll get it!

B:

You're a freaking idiotic fat bitch who thinks people are stupid. Well maybe half the people you tell things to are but I AM NOT! What were you thinking telling me those things and thought I'd believe you completely like a stupid fool and trust you?! You're the last creature I trust. You are a devious double-crossing hypocrite who deserves a bitch slap left and right! And what's with that fucking face and that fucking attitude you give?! Better wash that smirk as well as those dirts off your face! YOU'RE A FUCKING STUPID HYPOCRITE BITCH! I've had enough of you. You just wait the day I lost it and you face the fucking fuck music!

C:

You're crazy! Most people thinks its your heritage from the other side of your family. That is just too bad! I just hope you rot in hell or wherever you can! What's your freaking problem?! You rat about someone who's fucking dear to you who has been fucking rooting for you for your entire fucking life and you went to see a fucking relative and do what exactly?! What were you thinking?! Have you fucking lost it?! And what's up with confiding to a family member who's an outsider?! Where are your fucking judgments?! Are you really that fucking crazy?! Or should I say stupid?! You know its just sad, annoying and freaking irritating that next year where you've decided to pursue your life to. You're fuckingly stupid! This is what you get for fucking clicking with fucking idiots! You're a complete moron! You know what, people are right time will tell. Time will let us, in fact all of us including you to realize and see what a complete idiotic moron you are! You are such a dog! And the best part is, you know you are one and you're blessing yourself to being it! Happy devoted to your bitch you freaking dog!

D:

You are one stupid moronic bitch who's waiting for your day to get a bitch slap! its just sad and irritating that I can't give you that bitch slap which you totally deserve! But that's not the end of the world. I've other means of giving you that bitch slap! This is what you get for associating with a freaking shaman! I'm a nice person to be frank but you don't deserve the nice part of me. You just wait. And for a second if you think after what I'm going to do you'll get to interrogate me well you thought wrong bitch! You have absolutely no idea! You just wait! I will deal with you bit by bit and give you what you deserve in the most painful way you've ever known!

Moronic bitches of the same kind will flock together.

Most probably I'll be going away this Christmas. Its a vacation trip for this holiday. This is the reason behind why I'm looking forward to this holiday. I'm still contemplating however. Right now I really can't decide whether do I really wanna go or not. I'll just let time decide and think it through this weekend.

Its this time of the year that I really wish I'm in London or Zurich or New York having a White Christmas and play with snow!

Alvida!

Amazement Inn Still

2009-12-16T00:34:00.004+08:00

Hey,

There's two papers tomorrow, EG1212 and EG1204. I SWEAR TO GOD I STUDIED NOTHING FOR BOTH PAPERS.

It has been or rather its my switch-off-with-school mode right now. I don't know why but I couldn't bother any lesser.

Fhariz Khan should really advice Raoul Khan to keep quite and refrain from talking.

I can't wait to see my 2 days old (as I'm typing this) cousin.

A certain someone avoid this very question whenever I ask that person. However I was given an Instant statement which for some reason, I'm finding it super hard to believe!

I should really go to sleep.

I'm really happy I cleared a certain air. More like a certain doubt. Clearly what I doubted is wrong and my instincts are right!

I just can't wait for common tests to be over and Holidays to finally dawn. Speaking of holidays, I have some hanging plans for this holiday.

I wanna eat Cookies!

Alvida!

Positive Too Weight

2009-12-14T22:40:00.002+08:00

Hey,

Earlier today was Maths common test. I would say: Happy Flunking! Its really wasted as I knew most of it bits and pieces. Had I study, I would nail the paper but now I think I'm nailed. Uff!

Shall spend the whole of tomorrow mugging. I have three more papers and one of which I must, repeat, MUST get an A or A++ for it.

I'm excited for the holidays. I can't wait for Christmas! I wanna eat Truffles and Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookies. This is the best time of the year to spend my money at Cold Storage or The Market Place at Paragon. Speaking of which, I went to see the Christmas lights the other night with family. Its really nice the lightings and decorations. I have to take a trip down to Orchard Road again. It's a must!

I had a really weird dream last night. I dreamt of me, stuck in a bottle. Squeezed into a bottle which is smaller than myself. I was gasping for air. It was claustrophobic. It was crazy. I woke up suddenly. Went back to sleep and had another stupid dream. This time its about snakes! Insane! I mean I admit I am an Ophidiophobia but why does it have to appear in my dream? And its not just any snake its those brown cobra. URGH! Crazy! And I've had dreams on these stupid creature not once or twice but a million times.

Moving on. On another note, I dreamt of my grandmother the other day. My Nani came to my dream! That was good. And ummm oh yes! I had a dream and in that dream I saw myself on a big ship sailing to god knows where. But the surroundings in the dream was beautiful and I was smiling and feeling happy. I assume its a positive dream. :)

I really wanna and have to get out of this country!

I just can't wait to be done with Poly and to pursue my long-awaited Degree program and to kick start my career in I've-yet-to-decide-what-it-is. That can wait I guess. Most probably it'll be in the Aviation or Aerospace industry. Something relative. Its better I guess, for progression purposes etc.

There has been this air lately. Despair, Ignorant, Ditching, Betrayal, Insolent and Selfishness. I pray for all of it to stop.

Alvida.

Unsung Thought

2009-12-12T23:00:00.003+08:00

Hey,

I miss you blog!

I wanna watch De Dana Dan. The song is really growing on me.

I'm moodless right now. I went swimming. I'm darker now.

I think I just got ditched, bitched, or ignored. I wonder why.

Something is not right somewhere. Definitely not right.

This is crazy.

I think about you alot these days. Its really unbelievable. I guess I'm missing you alot.

Insane! I think.

I need to study. Common Test in 2 days! C-R-A-P!

Alvida!

Dwell Amidst Memories

2009-12-05T23:44:00.003+08:00

Hey,

I am stressed. I've been feeling down. I do not know why. I'm moodless, emotional, down and just could not be bothered with things. I wonder why.

I'm searching for an answer to this whole revelation. What could it possibly be? I'm despising school right now. With me being in this form, school is a drag. Everyday I go to school with this constant complacency. I could feel the vibe. Especially when I'm near or around or with a certain human beings.

I never thought I'd say this, but school is eating me up. What with its timing, the load of work, assignments, tests, all kind of shit. It really is eating me up.

How does one reacts when one found out or realizes a person's true self? What does one do or suppose to do when one found out that a person is on to something? What does one do when a person has been badmouthing one behind most peoples' back? What does one do when one knows a certain people is or are constantly having a problem with one?

You don't give me a reason to not hate you. I blame you completely for all that you've done, doing and going to do. The best part is, you're still a kid. Let me repeat that: A KID! A kid who has too much, way too much of sinful acids both metaphorically and literally. You have too many obvious flaws and you're not doing anything about it.

I've something that I wish to convey to you: I've my own form of temper. You do not want that side of me to surface. I know I don't. Please variate while I'm still tolerating.

I spent the whole of today doing e-quizzes. What a goner.

I don't know what its like with you. One moment you're hot and then you're cold. Why are you doing this? I can't help but to think its my fault. Did I do something? Did I say something that made you turn your back against me? I feel guilty every time I think about it. What went down between us. Here I'm thinking maybe we can pick things up where we left them. I am, however getting a feeling that I'm clapping on my own this time round. Its really saddening. Such a waste. We both share the same birthday, birthyear and birthdate. I know its petty but up to a certain extent. And yes, up to a certain extent. There is a connection. I can tell. When I hear your voice over the phone the other time, I cannot tell you how much I've missed that voice. How much I missed talking to you over the phone. How many sleepless nights we spent being with each other. Alas its too late now isn't it? You've clearly moved on. Effort gone to waste.

Hear these words, hear my cry,
YOU who have clearly drifted-by.
Let the object of objections return,
So its existence may be reaffirmed.

I've gained weight! What a horror! I shall spend the whole of tomorrow mugging. I've test here and there and every now and then. What could be worst? Like its peak period now huh.

Alvida!

Much Less To Much

2009-12-01T23:13:00.003+08:00

Hey,

I've been meaning to blog. I just haven't got the time. School has been stressful. Its week 7 now. Common test is on week 9. This week right up to the common test week we have tests here and there! Holidays' not until week 10! Pfft! This is driving me crazy!

Yesterday I witnessed 3 accidents. 3 accidents in one day! I got goosebumps when I saw the third.

I'm uploading pictures of chalet over at FB. Its taking a while. I suck at using its functions. :)

Tomorrow is Wednesday and I have lecture from 9am - 3pm. What an ideal day to not go to school!

I wanna go to KL. I really should. If I have an opportunity I will definitely go to KL.

I have some things that I wanna post about and I shall blog about it on the next post I think.

Alvida!

High On Screen

2009-11-26T22:22:00.003+08:00

Hey,

The day starts off with an 8am lecture. That lasted for about 2 hours. I have a 2 hours tutorial after that but I had no mood. My friend from RP came over and i went to Macs to eat breakfast with her.

We waited for another 'friend'. Following which we left school. They head to lavender for passport collection while I head to Bedok Reservoir and meet up with my cousin for lunch.

After lunch I head home. Rest for about an hour, bath, change and go out again! This time to EHub. Met up with some cousins, friend and a cousin's fiance. We watched: The Twilight Saga: New Moon!

That movie is awesome! I love it! Can't wait for it's 3rd. I wanna read the book. It is a must. Now I'm thinking of going to watch it again. :)

Gosh! I'm having cold! Stupid runny nose again! This suck! Really! Wonder which idiotic SOB got me with this. Must be the same group of people, in which their names I shall not mention, who always got me infected or influenced with such stupid disease. Its like they themselves are diseases - metaphorically speaking.. :)

I need my pillow right now.

Alvida!

Gratifying Traipse

2009-11-25T21:39:00.008+08:00

Hey,

I had a really long day today. Between 9am - 2pm I was in school. It was lecture throughout. After school I went to Somerset for an interview at NewUrbanMale. That took about 2 hours.

After the Interview I met up with some cousins and a friend of theirs. We had late lunch at Seoul Garden. We spent about 3 hours there. after we're done stuffing ourselves we left! While going down to the Ground floor of Ngee Ann City, here's what I saw:

Christmas Tree at Ngee Ann City!

I saw this favourite boutique of mine:

One of my favourite designer brands!

We walk to Orchard train station and passed by:

One of my favourite brand and boutique!

And I saw my another favourite boutique:

My favourite brand, boutique and festive season: Christmas!!!

Now I can't wait for christmas! This is so exciting.

After I'm done mesmerized, I took the train and head back to Tampines. Met up or rather catch up with a friend at Starbucks over Caramel Machiatto - DE-CAFF, CREAM BASE! With that I head home.

I'm having fever symptoms. Sore throats, headaches, irrational coldness and all. Irritating.

I was shocked to see you replying to those messages. It is really good to hear from you again. Truth be told: I Miss You.

I have an 8am lecture tomorrow and what the hell am I doing and why the hell am I still up?

Alvida!

Stint Rhapsodized

2009-11-18T21:51:00.004+08:00

Hey,

After I'm done with Poly, I feel like doing a degree in the applied science line. Perhaps biomedical or pharmaceutical sciences. I miss those area of interest. Now I'm filled with aerospace, aviation and what not. Little did I realize that applied science was my initial interest.

I'm thinking of going to either SMU or that new university that is coming up which is in Changi. Or I might just pursue a degree course which is very much related to what I'm doing now in poly. It'll be easier, I mean I can skip a few semesters and that is just wonderful.

Well degree-talks is still a distant for me. I've to cross a couple of hurdles first. There's NS which I very much wanna DO AWAY with. It is totally redundant and a complete waste of time!

I attended a certain someone's wedding yesterday. I know a wedding on a Tuesday? The wedding ceremony was held at the Registration of Marriage and it was yesterday afternoon. Following which was the dinner last night held at Aloha Loyang! 2 of the poolside terrace! Excellent! The wedding dinner was just awesome. The food, the crowd (which was packed by the way), the music, the atmosphere. Just wonderful. For me the food wins everything. Excellent. I wanna be fed with that type of food everyday!

Shaadi ki Mubarak Arjun Saxena aur Rhea Patel!
May your marriage last till eternity.
*lots of love*
*hugs and kisses*

I miss Aloha Loyang. It is so much fun.

I wanna watch A Christmas Carol and Chance Pe Dance.

I wanted to study mechanics but I couldn't! I don't understand that module completely. I only know bits and pieces which is tough! How am I suppose to do the tutorials? Maths paper quiz is this Friday. Common test in 4 weeks time and final exams in 2 months time. Everything is super quick. Time really fly!

I'm sleepy and I have a morning lecture tomorrow. I need to get enough sleep so the lecturer does not put me to sleep again tomorrow with his utmost boring and monotonous lecture.

Alvida.

Yeh Dooriyan

2009-11-15T14:11:00.004+08:00

Yeh dooriyan,

Inn raaho ki dooriyan, nigaaho ki dooriyan,
Hum raaho ki dooriyan, fanaa ho sabhi dooriyan

Kyun koi paas hai, door hai, kyun koi jaane na koi yahaan pe
Aa raaha paas ya door main ja raaha, jaanu na main hoon kahaan pe

Yeh dooriyan,

Inn raaho ki dooriyan, nigaaho ki dooriyan,
Hum raaho ki dooriyan, fanaa ho sabhi dooriyan

Yeh dooriyan

Kabhi huwa yeh bhi, khaali raaho pe bhi tu tha mere saath
Kabhi tujhe milke lauta mera dil yeh khaali khaali haath
Yeh bhi huwa kabhi jaise huwa aabhi, tujhko sabhi mein paa liya

Tera mujhe, kar jaati hai dooriyan, sataati hain dooriyan
Tarsaati hain dooriyan, fanaa ho sabhi dooriyan

Kaaha bhi na maine, nahin jina maine tu jho na mila
Tujhe bhule se bhi bhola na maine chaahu faasela
Baas faasela rahe, banke kasak jo kahe
Ho aur chaahat yeh jawaan

Teri meri mit jaani hai dooriyan, begaani hai dooriyan
Hat jaani dooriyan, fanaa ho sabhi dooriyan

Kyun koi paas hai, door hai, kyun koi jaane na koi yahaan pe
Aa raaha paas ya door main ja raaha, jaanu na main hoon kahaan pe

Yeh dooriyan,

Inn raaho ki dooriyan, nigaaho ki dooriyan,
Hum raaho ki dooriyan, fanaa ho sabhi dooriyan

Yeh dooriyan

Friday The Thirteen

2009-11-13T23:14:00.003+08:00

Hey,

This week has really been a week. More like an attitude week for me. Monday I did not go to school. I was on medical leave. Tuesday I was angry half the time. Wednesday I got sick again and with zero mood. Thursday was a blunder, supposed to study and all I did was slack around. Friday, hmm, I left school when the tutorial is about to start and I've been feeling guilty ever since.

Other than that today's fine. The weather's awesome. It rained the whole time. Nice cool wind blowing. I feel really relax and nice. I spent hours watching episodes of Charmed. It all adds up: today is Friday the 13th! Not sure if anyone will understand or vision the picture clearly, but I know I do.

Its been long since I last blog. I really need to study. There's so much to learn and there's so much to capture and store it in this fickle-minded mind of mine.

On that note, I've found myself a temporary job. A sales assistance at one of the kids' toy shop over at Airport Terminal 3. I know retail is really not my kinda thing but I'm just buying time and looking around for better options. I've pending jobs and interviews to attend to.

One of it is this passenger service at Airport. That is one genre I'm familiar with inside out. I'm really counting on it. Hopefully the work timing, pay and everything works out.

All thanks to a certain ideology that had some of us minors to have sky high hopes only to find despair, dismay and disappointment. Well that would just be a reality check for us minors.

It is raining right now. I'm suddenly reminded of that mysterious YOU. One that I don't know of. How I wish, in this rain, we'd be alone together passing by time with endless talks and admires. I'd be blessed to have such beauty bestowed upon me. It is rather odd seeing such beauty at such place which brings disappointment. Roses has thorns so what are you? I see YOU for the very first time in my life today and it send shivers running up and down my spine and gives me the thrill of momentary happiness now when I think of YOU. I certainly hope I do get to see more of YOU.

It is raining now. What a beautiful weather. I feel like going for a long drive. Perhaps to Johor and have some good supper. Alas, for now I think I shall watch movies. As of now, I'm Charmed.

:)

Alvida!

Signs That Goes Around

2009-11-04T23:17:00.002+08:00

Hey,

OMG! The interview is tomorrow! I'm nervous, terrified, petrified(not yet) and horrified(possibly). I hope I don't screw the interview.

I need to study for my maths paper quiz which is on Friday.

Point to note: I felt really awkward and out of place. Thanks to the inhospitality.

I've realized that human-beings will put their feelings and thoughts above others' in general. So much for all those false preaches.

I've realized my mistakes and will ensure I keep within the boundaries which I've mend for myself.

Go on, bitch about all you want. I forgive you for all I could. After all, we are all cousins. :)

I must study and revise what I've learn from week 1 up till now.

I shall turn in already.

Alvida!

Wrecked What's Within Walls

2009-10-29T22:29:00.006+08:00

Hey,

School started at 8am today with a 2 hour lecture which ended at 9.30am. My friends and I went to eat. I didn't wanna eat initially but how could I compromise Mc breakfast?

Following which I had tutorial between 10am - 12pm. We were released at 11.50am, I bored the bus at 12pm and I'm home by 12.50pm. Fast eh.

The rest of the day today was supposed to be spent studying and doing homeworks BUT I ended up watching TV instead! At about 6pm I when over to a cousin's place and now I'm home.

I need a haircut. I wanna go swimming. I wanna tan myself. I must get ready for the interview. I must look good for the photo.

I can't believe I saw you. Seeing you only to find deception and much of disappointment. I'm crushed when I saw you holding hands with your significant other. When our eyes met however, I can feel the rush. I can feel the connection, the affection that we might have for each other. Envious as though a point that needs to be proved. Alas it is all countered the moment I saw your beautiful face. When I'm just a few steps away or rather when I'm out of your sight, I can see the casualness between you and your significant other. How the hands are no longer tangled in each other's. I am however pleased with what I saw. Happy Thursday to you.

Tomorrow is another short day in school. I'm simply overjoyed by the thought of it.

Does it costs to go for tanning? Then again I'm not too keen having precarious chemical sprayed on my body even though it doesn't cost that much. I don't wanna enjoy the spotlight at the expense of my own health. No! I'd rather settle with the good old swimming or outdoor sports like running in the middle of the afternoon. Whatever I could possibly think of.

Happy Thursday people!

Alvida!

The Undefined Danger

2009-10-28T21:28:00.002+08:00

Hey,

For what's worth, today is the shortest day I had that I could think of, in school. School starts 9am for today but I overslept and came at 12! I arrived at 12.30pm though. So from 12 to 1 there's e-learning and from 1 - 3 there's lecture. At about 1.50pm the lecture ended and we were dismissed! I left school at 2pm!

I'm loving my blog right now. I can feel its warmth. I don't need no reason to blog. It is just as and when I feel like blogging and...

I get easily bored with the songs in my MP3. I feel the urge to change the songs every now and then. Its like a drug.

Alvida!

The Temptation Air

2009-10-19T21:52:00.003+08:00

Hey,

As much as I didn't wanted, school started. Semester 2. I had school from 8am - 6pm today. What a way to kick off the semester. Luckily we were released at 5pm. There was however long breaks in between. I thought the breaks can be pushed until the end and all in all earlier release for the day.

I'm excited for this new semester. I'm looking forward to the modules in this semester. There'll be lots of lab reports to do. I love reports. Well some might say I'll do reports this semester until I get sick of it.

I'm anticipating Christmas. I'm really looking forward to it. I did not celebrate it last year as I was working. I'll be holidaying this year so there's no work to steal the light. I can feel the air.

I wanna go for a holiday trip during my year-end break. Not in December though, its sometime around March next year. I wanna go to those exotic beach island and relax all I could there. Bathe in the delicate sea and baked under the glazing sun. I sure sound like I'm a piece of meat!

Alas! Its schooling time for now and I've school tomorrow. I shall turn in early tonight.

Alvida!

Wishes Not Quite Right

2009-10-15T22:52:00.002+08:00

Hey,

This weekend will be Diwali! Not that I celebrate Diwali but there'll be lots of great shows and movies on TV. I was told that we might be having a certain relatives over this weekend and that they'll be sleeping over. This will be fun. I really hope they do come over.

I'm still not looking forward to school. Part of me says it'll be fun and all but there's still one part of me that insists on more holidays and days of endless slacking.

I wanna eat cookies until I'm sick of it. I wanna be fed with excellent breakfast everyday. I'd love to have cheesecakes ready for me whenever I crave for desserts.

Alvida.

Who Knew

2009-10-12T22:22:00.003+08:00

Hey,

I'm so not looking forward to school. I'm having so much fun holidaying as it is. I'm not looking forward to waking up early, having to board that bus 10 times a week.

I am not ready for school. I wish for the holidays to be extended please.

I'm still having headache. Now I'm also having sinus. This is terrible.

I lost a few songs from my mp3. It is hard for me to retrieve as the songs was recorded and not uploaded into my mp3. I'm really sad now. How I wish there had been a back-up of the songs.

Alvida.

Dangerous Assumtions

2009-10-11T23:40:00.005+08:00

Hey,

There's some things in my private personal blog that I thought it ought to be in here. Reluctant I was at dawn and after repulsive hesitant:

~ I can totally sense the air.

~ Don't ever think I'm stupid because I AM NOT!

~ Clearly the both of you judge and I was totally judged that night.

~ I have this to tell you: as sad as it sound, you are still young.

~ That mature-ness is something you are still far from.

~ For me to argue with the both of you is what I would say is childish.

The young and clueless. What do I expect?

If you are even close to clever, read what is lying in between the lines.

I am having this throbbing headache for days and it is really painful. Am I sick? Shall I pay the doctor a visit? Isn't it petty for just a headache which what is thought whose consequence out of little possibilities might lead to a severe headache. I pray hard for alls well.

On due note I shall end it here.

Alvida.

Ishq Hi Rab Hai

2009-10-06T23:00:00.004+08:00

Jhappiyon sa desh hai mera
O soneya
Jhappiyon sa desh hai mera

Jhappiyon sa desh hai mera
O soneya
Jhappiyon sa desh hai mera

Jhappiyon sa desh hai mera
O soneya
Jhappiyon sa desh hai mera

Jhappiyon sa desh hai mera
O soneya
Jhappiyon sa desh hai mera

Tu door jitna jaaye, yeh paas utna aaye

Kab dil tera le jaaye

Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya
Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya

Tu door jitna jaaye, yeh paas utna aaye

Kab dil tera le jaaye

Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya
Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya

Dil mein rehta hai, gharon ko kisne pucha ji
Keh daala jo yaar kabhi naa pucha duja ji

Dil mein rehte hai gharon ko kisne pucha ji
Keh daala jo yaar kabhi naa pucha duja ji

Raahein sabhi mudh jaaye, toote bhi dil jud jaaye

Kab dil tera yeh jaaye

Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya
Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya

Tu door jitna jaaye, yeh paas utna aaye

Kab dil tera yeh jaaye

Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya
Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya

Jaane anjaane dhilon ko dil se choote hain
Apne begaane jo milte yaar hi kehte hain

Jaane anjaane dhilon ko dil se choote hain
Apne begaane jo milte yaar hi kehte hain

Rishtey yeh rab ne banaaye, tu laakh khud ko bachaaye

Kab dil tera yeh jaaye

Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya
Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya

Tu door jitna jaaye, yeh paas utna aaye

Kab dil tera yeh jaaye

Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya
Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya

Jhappiyon sa desh hai mera
O soneya
Jhappiyon sa desh hai mera

Jhappiyon sa desh hai mera
O soneya
Jhappiyon sa desh hai mera

Tu door jitna jaaye, yeh paas utna aaye

Kab dil tera yeh jaaye

Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya
Yahaan pe, Ishq Hi Hai Rab Aur Khuda Soneya

Unsung

2009-10-01T15:58:00.002+08:00

Hey,

I miss my blog. I miss those long entries. I wanna buy the expansion packs. Go watch movies. Thanks to a certain group of people, I now have to go to Yishun to watch a particular movie.

I suddenly lost it.

~~~~

Nick feels sick. Thanks to that circle of cousins he knows.

~~~~

I definitely need more time and story

Alvida

Statement

2009-09-28T22:46:00.003+08:00

Hey,

Holidays is so much fun. I'm having a good time now.

I've watched Dil Bole Hadippa. Its damn good! So goinna watch it again.

I love Beyonce.

I want Ben & Jerry's Cookie Dough, Strawberry Cheesecake, Fossil Fuel and Chocolate Therapy.

I'm having teeth problem.

Alvida!

Sessile Season

2009-09-16T23:28:00.002+08:00

Hey,

Yeay! Blogger is alright again! I can blog like the way I used to. I can change the colours, font sizes and all. Oh yes! This is going to be so much fun.

I'm actually blogging using my desktop now. Do not be alarmed. My laptop is completely fine. I just feel like blogging using my desktop. You know, retrieve the 'feeling' and keeping in touch with my extra-ordinary keyboard.

Oh yes! Raya is coming! I so can't wait for Raya! *Whee!*

I had just finished watching episode one of season two of 90210. God! am I stressed after watching that episode. Well it is really fun. I'm loving it!

Until here for today.

Alvida!

The 20th

2009-09-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

Hey,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ME! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUHAMMAD FHARIZ KHAN SURATTEE BIN HASHIM KHAN SURATTEE! I am 20 years old as off today!

****
Dear YOU,

I am aware that it is your birthday too today. I'm just too reluctant to wish you given the situation or rather the reciprocal which I receive today one year ago. So I decided not to. Call me selfish but I'm sure there are many others who wishes you today and you won't even me reminded of me. So all the best to you and have a good day.

Yours ...
****

WoW! I'm like super lethargic! I'm going to bed..

Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

ALVIDA!

The Eve

2009-09-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

Hey,

I am sleepy. What could have caused my sleepiness? Could it be that I did not sleep after sahur and it is showing its effect now? Or could it be that the fan is blowing right at me and I'm being fanned to sleepiness. Or could it be I'm just super tired? Perhaps its all of it put together.

Its the Eve. Somehow or rather, I don't really feel the excitement despite nor being the eve. I get carried away most of the time. Yes I am reminded every now and then and yes there's that excitement like what am I going to do on the day. Will i get many 'incentives', on and on. I shall leave it for tomorrow.

This blogger's posting page is so irritating. Its different. I can't change the colours and fonts of my entries etc. Its abnormal. How do I make it like its usual again? How? I need help. Times like this do I really wish I'm a computer freak - just like a friend of mine. :)

PS: See! You are mentioned in my blog or rather my posts. I do think of you my friend. Boy, aren't you just paranoid? :D

Spongebob Squarepants is so much fun! I'm loving it.

Alvida!

Unusual Wishes

2009-09-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Its Beyonce's birthday today! Happy Birthday Beyonce! I'll always love you! *kisses*

I'm missing my grandfather badly. When is he going to return back from Malaysia? Usually he would already be in Singapore when fasting month starts like the 1st or 2nd or 3rd day. But this time I heard he'll only be back in Singapore on the 24th ramadhan onwards. WTH?! That's like in about 10 days! URgH! I want him to come back asap! If possible I want him to pop up at my door tomorrow morning. I miss him so bad!

Lately I've been sleeping late and waking up early. The best part is, I don't get no migrane or headache or runny nose or whatever possible effects of its symptoms whatsoever. Cool huh?! I guess it must be the blessings of Ramadhan.

I'm in love with Flaws and All.

Alvida!

Hidden Talent Hid

2009-09-03T23:22:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Went over to BuNazia's place today. Watched her bake oatmeal cookies. At first she wanted me to bring the mixer from my place as she claims that her's is 'spoilt' as she saw oil leaking. I did not bring it over of-course.

When I reached her place she asked for that mixer. I told her I didn't bring it cause I couldn't be bothered. And I explained to her that her mixer may not be spoilt. Sometimes a machine, after not being used for quite some time, they tend to be 'cranky' a little, but only at the start. But after running it for a while, it'll be fine. Just like motorcars or any other machines. - Uh! The Engineer in me!

And indeed! We wipe-clean the oil leaked area and she starts to bake while I watched. I was supposed to keep her company as she was bored keeping alone at home. Her mum went to work, dad and brother went out. I actually watched Coffee Prince while she baked. The TV was on and we decided to watch that Korean drama and I ended up watching Korean drama instead of watching her. So after the mixing part was over, its the drop-each-mounded-cookie-onto-the-cookie-sheet time. She did that on the couch while watching. The dough was brittle and we wonder why. So after the first two batch was baked, she scanned through the recipe, and GOODNESS GRACIOUS! She forgot to add in eggs! It was super funny! We had a good laugh.

It was hi-la-ri-o-us!

Lucky thing the cookies turn out well. So the following batches onwards she added eggs of-course.

The weather is crazy these days! One day its heavily raining and hot and sunny the next. Bitterly cold one moment and Irritatingly hot on another. Its nice if its just rain or just cold without raining with the sun only giving out light and a little tiny bit of heat with nice breezy cool wind blowing. It'll be like natural air-conditioning! We'll all be able to enjoy the comfort of air-conditioning naturally without any harm towards the environment.

Rahegi sadaa yahaan, Pyaar ki yeh dastaan.
Sunenge sadaa jisey, Yeh Zameen asmaan.

I am fat! I eat like a bloody swine.

Alvida!

A Quick One

2009-09-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

Hey,

My desktop has returned! It was 'damaged' haha. It's power supply was faulty, graphic card spoilt and the ram was STOLEN! So after about a year and 5 months, which is today, my uncle and my mum decided to repair that CPU. So we went to Sim Lim Square, fixed everything, replaced the faulty power supply and graphic card to new ones. We even bought not one but two rams! Everything was fixed and we brought the CPU back home.

Now I'm extremely excited! I can't wait to unravel that CPU. Its like i left things with that computer sometime around April 2008 and its September 2009 now. I can't wait to see the list of songs I hear dated April 08 backwards. Can't wait to view those pictures and videos. Its like It was frozen you see when my computer suddenly blacked out. But now its fixed! I got my baby back!

*YeaY-Me!*

July 2009, lots of cousin's birthday. August 2009, I had fun with my cousin.

I'm sleepy now. Shall turn in early tonight.

Alvida!

Nice Start

2009-09-01T23:12:00.001+08:00

Hey,

I wanna buy a ring for myself. Thought of wearing a simple grey/silver ring.

It rained most of today. The rest of the day was nice strong wind blowing with a little bit of sun. Oh how I love today's weather.

Its September once again! The month of greatness! Sadly, my teenage days are numbered! Soon I'll no longer be a teenager. This is life right. You grow older by the minute and at the same time wiser too. But this doesn't seem to be for the cases of some. Being about a decade older and yet so stupid.

Once again I noticed the posting gap between November 2008 and April 2009. This is all thanks to some worthless bunch of immature useless, brainless idiotic losers who acts no different then of a pig! Why should I even care for those people or why should I even be bothered to blame myself for what I know is they are at fault. Call me selfish but whatever. I am not at all. Its a good think I'm no longer at that place. Its completely alright if I couldn't earn a few more thousand dollars. Rather than stuck being with those people. Oh no! I opt out of that.

Words of advice: Be careful. Care for and look after yourself. This is especially if or when you enter the working world. Not everyone has the purest of heart. People tend to have that jealousy and hidden agenda. Don't be blinded by one. Always stay clear of rivalries and groupings. It is not at all healthy. Never ever destructs people's life and or people's rice bowl. Its not good.

Its usually these occasions that we count on and are being positive towards karma. When we are not the victim.

Happy Wonderful September and a Happy Beautiful Virgo people!

Alvida!

Looping Update

2009-09-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

Hey,

So much to say.

First of, EXAMS OVER!

I've changed my blog skin to this new one. It is definitely different from the previous skins. I'll stick to this skin as of now and until it bores me, I shall either revert to the old one or start blog hunting for a new one.

Alvida!

Flaws of a Bouquet

2009-08-16T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hey,

I woke up at 11am today! So much for going running in the morning. Well I was awake like 7am++ but I couldn't wake up. So I went back to sleep and goodness gracious!

I get up eventually, bath, had brunch and watched TV. At around 3pm went out with my cousin. We took 65 to Orchard. The bus ride is damn long! We went to Ion Orchard. It is super nice! We had berry berry creme brulee at Marvelous Cream and that GoGo Franks hot dog while walking around. Saw many shops and boutiques.

We entered Zara. The Zara boutique at Ion Orchard is huge and double story! I'm like pre-heated. Almost bought a few stuff but seeing the amount of people I just couldn't stand it. We left Zara and went to Louis Vuitton. The LV boutique is to die for! Its double story and its damn nice! From the door to the carpet to the wardrobes to the fitting rooms to the decorations to the drapes to the EVERYTHING! I'm like baked in there! Haha.. I swear to god I'm like melting in there. *melting moments* I told my cousin I wanna die in there. I don't mind falling down the slide of stairs in the boutique even for a million times. Everything is just WoW! All I wanna do is sit there and admire the beauty LV has.

We left Ion Orchard of-course and walk along Orchard Road. Initially we wanted to take a bus to Boat Quay and finds it redundant so we continued walking and walking and entered random shops. As we walk and walk we got hungry and tired. Went to Marks and Spencer, Paragon. Bought shortbreads, chocolates, digestive buscuits, Marzipan!?, chips and biscuits lurh basically. We left Paragon and head to Plaza Sing. Only at Plaza Sing we ate. I'm not goinna tell where we ate. Oh god! I'm a sinner!

After eating, I bought calamari rings from Chippy British Take Away. My cousin bought bubble tea and a custard puff from I don't know where. We sat outside PS and ate while talking. Its so much fun! The custard puff is nice. Saw some people arguing.

After some time we went to 7/11 get a drink and took 65 home. And now I'm home. My parents just came back from Johor. They bought lots of stuffs. I so wanna go Johor.

Oh yes! There's Dunkin' Donuts at Ion Orchard! I feel like drinking a cup of tea now. My throat hurts badly.

While I was at towm area today, I saw a gazillion people I know! So not the time!

I am crushed.

Jab din yeh dhale palkon ke taale, koi saanse le oh jaana.
Khaamosh rahe kabhi chupke se koi baat kare oh jaana.

Words and time to describe my feelings for that special someone I barely know. Though a few years it has been I still feel that you are a complete stranger to me. So much for whatever that has been said from the other party. It all comes down the same. Clearly and outsider can never win and I'm just and outsider or should I say you're the outsider since you're the stranger I never know.

Its the first and it hurts deeply.

Alvida!

Surprise, Sur-price!

2009-08-14T23:17:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Today: common test between 8.30am - 10am. After that, met up with Nana and head to airport. Had lunch at Burger King followed by desserts at Coffee Club! Went back home after that, did some chores, rest abit and went out again. This time met up with Andy and Nana and we went to Tampines interchange and had dinner at food culture. Followed by desserts at Haagen Daz. After that went back home.

The best part: raftly about 2 hours after reaching home, we recieve a call on my dad's phone. Its from the Haagen Daz - people. They called to inform and 'check' that have I left my phone there. I'm like, *stoned*. At first I deny as I thought I had my phone with me. I rummaged through my bag and realise that my phone was indeed, missing! I told that honest guy that that is definitely my phone. He laughed and asked, a few hours it has been and I don't realise that my phone is absent. I'm like, well when I reached home I just chuck my bag aside and... So I went to Haagen Daz to redeem my 'founded' phone. This is scary yet funny.

Thank-God for looking after me and my phone!

And now I'm tired and freaking sleepy! Tomorrow I have to wake up early to go running. In the afternoon I'm going out to study. Exams coming okay! Definitely need to study. I shall start mugging for exams tomorrow!

Irritance which brings along annoyance.

Things are just undefined and deeply hypocritical.

Alvida!

How Time Slows Down

2009-08-11T15:14:00.004+08:00

Hey,

I'm in school now dreading my time here every single minute. Out of pure boredome and inapt procrastination, I decided to blog!

How sad it is now that I am staring into the screen thinking of what to write in here.

I sense some skepticism.

Facing is not easy.

Again I ask: How long do you intend to play this charade of silence?

I guess it might be longer.

Alvida!

Of The Wishes and Sayings

2009-08-08T22:51:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Been meaning and finding time to blog.

Funny how when there's occasion then there'll be all those that has been said and or will continue to be said. Of all that is just attacks.

Now what shall I say; given the situation that I'm in. I don't have any idea that you would turn out that way.

When has it became alright for a person who is clearly in the wrong or 'on-behalf' of someone who's in the wrong or whatsoever, can actually play the doubles and diliberately turn the table around and make it seem like its all about them?

Why has the weather been so hot these days? I can't stand the heat. Its really excruciating. Haha not really. We all can endure the heat I believe.

I'm wishing for all the good moments to come back and I believe it is dated 2005 onwards and wishes for those days of long long account. Hasn't been easy.

I feel like I'm losing my grip. Whoever said its easy? Its a mental pressure.

I really wish for billions of dollars to be given to me every single day.

Alvida!

Rather Different

2009-07-31T22:28:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Nothing is more comforting than blogging. Today is like a one-of-a-kind day. Not the typical days. OMG! Exams coming!

I wanna and must watch Love Aaj Kal.

I think I'm liking the song: She Wolf by Shakira. Its kinda catchy and nice.. Haha.

I don't know what its like with you. I'm afraid it might be another episode.

I'm sleepy and I have got loads to study.

Alvida!

Too Much To Think

2009-07-30T21:54:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Today is like my pocky day! I had six boxes of pocky consecutively! Crazy huh! Well that thing is addictive I gotta tell ya.

Do we really have to chuck, maybe chuck is a harsh word. Put-aside. Do we really have to put-aside our 'dreams' in thinking for our future? And by future means our career and above all money? I'm not sure. It is so tempting yet dangerously when its chosen wrongly. What more for a fickle-minded person such as me. I don't wanna regret later on just because of the satisfaction and the easeness and the money i'll be getting now.

Then again its 3 years..

I'm having this throbbing headache and this annoying fever and it just won't go away! So not the time you stupid disease! I need to go to school and study!

Today at school, I saw this particular person alot actually! And the person actually looked at me in the most creepiest way I've ever known. Abit annoying actually. Suddenly I wanna puke.

OMG! Exams are drawing nearer! This is crazy!!! - and I got a B for EPC common test! Like OMG! B? EPC? ME? Doesn't that all seem so strange? But then again, I got B!!

Till here then

Alvida!

Shall I draw it out then

2009-07-29T22:04:00.001+08:00

Hey,

As odd as it sounds: I am Heartbroken.

I'd never thought I'd say this but I am. As of today it makes it all clear. That there was never us. Not even a single ray of hope. Not even with the 'help' and 'signals' from our dear friends. As mundane as it seems; I am clapping on my own again. Just as I thought there might be a chance. What we had, was it pretentious? Was it selfishness? Was it making-use of? Was it all a one big lie? You tell me. Seeing your significant other at a place where I'm obligated to really makes my heart boil. What he has that I don't?

I'd never thought that you would inflict this much pain upon me. The person I care for, bails on each and every time and above all adore with absolute intended biasness. Was there a point you would like to prove?

I'd never thought it would hurt this bad. Every single time even the littlest things are awefully painful. Is this retribution? If it is then what is the reason? Being stupid enough to fall for you? Even if it is, I would like to say that loving you is a pleasant feeling. I find comfort in you.

I'd never thought of such things being super major. I thought maybe because we go way back and there might just be some 'things'. Then again its not even close to a spark let alone flame.

Lambi Judai. Pehli Nazar Mein.

I wish you all the best in your love life. I hope he can fill you with the ever happiness and lots of love. You are a great person. You deserve to be loved. And as for him, he's lucky to have you. May you find all that you want and need in each other.

That was the best that could possibly get and went.

Alvida.

Peaceful is Sacred

2009-07-25T22:09:00.003+08:00

Hey,

Just came back. Had dinner with a cousin. Dinner was at FISH by Fish & Co. I enjoyed the mediterranean fish. The items from the salad bar was dissapointing. The place is damn nice I might all. But one thing made my day: Lemon Butter Dip!!! - I have a soft spot for that..

Lately I've been listening to loads of french and korean songs. Its addictive! Vois Sur Ton Chemin!

I HAVE to study! This is crazy! One more time: I HATE Communication Skills!

Distress mind. Far from serenity.

Yeay! Bandito and Cornetto Chocolate Mcflurry is back! Time to get fat!

And do we twist right?

Writings on the wall - Neither rhyme nor reason

You're a pest and a complete mess. With you its like cutting away nails which keeps growing back.

The ship has sailed, and soon will my foot!

Ek zara tum gale laaga lo hume, maut ko hum gale laaga lenge.

I'm super sleepy right now.

Alvida!